Hikaru's Memory

on FF mode

2012-02-06T19:23:00.000+08:00

lolz, recently on FF13 & FF13-2 mode.
i juz bought 13-2 3 days ago.
price was very gd oso thx to Zheng Yu.
if any of u wanna go gt games dat r gd n cheap,
can go to Start Gaming shop at Peninsular shoppin mall which is bside Funan IT Mall.

anyway, im goin back to Smith shop to work again.
super happy i dunno y.
mayb i miss the place tere n the atmosphere.
hehe, talkin abt work, i hven decide wad i wanna work as.
sumhow my bro keep cursin mi dat i wont gt in like dat.
seriously, if i didnt gt in, i dunno wad i wanna work.
all ppl tink abt workin is for money.
ya it is kinda true.
but if u r workin on sumting that u like the most,
then it wont b abt money but experience that u r earnin.
to mi, gainin experiences is much more better than money.

anyway, i hven send my particulars to NUS.
though i went to the campus on wed which makes mi super high abt it.
i dunno y bah,
mayb im goin to sumwhr n studyin on sumting dat i really wanna study abt.

hmm, kinda recently every1 tryin to cheer mi up.
all i noe is dat im not intelligent or talented at all.
im juz an average person with no strength in any skills.
like play games those chara wif balance stats like dat.
kinda sian n sick of it.

busy busy busy

2012-01-12T16:14:00.000+08:00

it has been busy recently.
well, busy in playin game lah..
AHAHAHA...
cause my bro bought a PS3 recently,
so i hv been gamin on FF13.
it is more grindin then it used to be sia.
omg.

o ya,
wk14 is marketin wk.
it will b even more busy.
y? cause it is on CNY wk.
im like wtf..
o well, it should b fine.

ahahahah sian... ==

2012-01-02T18:56:00.000+08:00

sian ar...
CNY comin which means is another sian day.
hven been bloggin for a while and yet my lyrics like has nv started to complete it.
seriously, no mood to continue.
i dunno y.
so tired, so restless.

anyway,
i bought 3 shirts for CNY for $35.
heng the shop i go is no ppl go de.
weird sia.
those nice clothes de no1 go.
those shitty de so many ppl go.
im like wtf??
sg ppl taste really changes.
haiz...

o btw,
recently kinda irritated.
well, i dun really like to go out wif ppl who keep tellin mi wad to do.
ya i noe tere r ppl like dat oso.
but halo??
those u said has no relevant to make mi the same person as i m.
u can gif opinion but not command gal. ==
argh, n dat is the reason y i dun wanna go out wif u.
n ur time is so pack like shit. ==..
n i hate goin out at nite. zzzzzzzzzzzz

hven been writtin

2011-12-23T20:42:00.000+08:00

hmm, seems like i kinda busy or lazy recently.
didnt really blog at all.
after jap exam, i hv been focusin on MP.

im not gd in art.
No theme, wrg color usage.
Haiz....
I hv always been doin work so randomly wif no style except mine.
Ya... i always been usin my own style.
Dats y i dun really hv reference unless is for evidence purpose...
I guess dat is y no1 accept it.
Argh probably it is easy for freelance.
I guess i like dat kind of life.

had a great time

2011-11-26T22:46:00.000+08:00

had a great time wif Jaiden today.
we watch Happy Feet 2 n is nice. xD
but b4 the show starts,
there is a little boy cryin for his mom.
well, mi n jay were like standin tere n keep tinkin wad we should do.
then we saw 1 aunty go to the boy tere we oso folo. ==
weird but we suggested to bring him to the counter.
however, the boy mom pop out of no whr n thank us i guess.

well, after the show we had a light dinner n a small desert.
n then shop in Daiso. xD
gt 2 pink nail polishes.
wee~~~
but i didnt shake well so the first attempt on the nails was kinda badly done.
so yup yup.

well, i tink i gonna start doin some revision tml.
JLPT is nxt wk n my time slot is at 2.20pm.
ya i noe it sux.
but no choice.
cause not i pick de.
i wan mornin loh.
much better but my dad will b overseas.
so no free ride oso. sian.
o well, signin off here now.

jap sch exam is over xD

2011-11-20T11:56:00.000+08:00

yeah, jap sch de exam juz over ytd.
finally, 1 huge stone is gone.
feel kinda abit relax.
but i still hv the JLPT N3 which i hv no idea if i could make it or not.

o well,
later gt to go to c my cousin child.
2day is the little guy de full mth.
hohoho. xD

busy gamin

2011-11-07T15:33:00.000+08:00

lolz, i hven been bloggin.
anyway, im busy playing FFType-0 recently.
well, i gonna hv my 2nd complete on the game again.
i tot everything will be the same but sumhow if u complete once,
u gt to complete the game wif some diff side stories added to tell u the whole story.
well, the same is kinda similar to FFXIII version.
meanin all FFXIII are in flash-back story.
which same goes to FFType-0.

o ya,
MP start liao.
erm, hven really feel the pressure frm tere yet.
but i already felt the pressure frm my jap classes.
kinda worried abt my final yr exam and the sch exam.
especially oral, i wanna pray sia.
dun wanna kana my last yr sensei to test mi.
he is a demon. ==

old faces

2011-10-29T13:34:00.002+08:00

haha, met jas n ej they all ytd.

well, went back to retrieve my cheque.

well, had alot of fun, is like very very long nv meet at all those feelin.

got to know sum of the stuff but cant say fully know i guess.

o well...

argh, recently nv really slp well.

keep feelin tired in the afternoon.

but the funniest ting is dat when i play game or serve net,

i dun feel tired at all. ==

o great, i nid to slp at 10 startin frm 2day.

well, no game after 9 so as i can slp in peace.

Asian Accent

2011-10-27T22:58:00.001+08:00

Nice video i kinda like dat.

internship ends

2011-10-17T13:22:00.001+08:00

SIP ends d.
Kinda abit free,
But currently on my way to TP to do self-revision for my jap.

Well, left 1 & a half mth to finish up all revision.
The paper is harder than i tot ever since i saw the sample version.
The paper 2 gonna b hard for mi to score.
Haiz...

I wonder how is every1 recently.
Every1 is kinda separated.
Due to MP & SIP.
so sian.

O well, gtg now.

Published with Blogger-droid v1.7.4

in my lowest point

2011-10-06T08:54:00.001+08:00

Wow im in my lowest point again.
Well... wanna gt a pair of new boots,
But none of my frens r available.
Hee An is sick, Mandy gt work n YL hven gt her pay n onli available after 4pm.
Haiz sian sia.

Probably sum of u may ask y i dun wan asked my cliques.
To b frank,
i hv nv been close to my cliques cause tere is nth for us to talk abt.
The gap is drawn close by Larry nia.
N u might also b askin,
Y i dun wan ask Larry rite??
Cause i knew he will say no to mi n yes to his bfs.
Dat fact.
Y?? Cause i used to asked him many times in the past,
But was rejected.
O well.
If he ask i will reject cause he is feelin bad or tryin to sympathy mi.
But im sry, i rather u remember tis bad memories as ur lesson.

Currently my mom says she wanna accompany mi,
but i told her i might b runnin to diff places.
So ya....

Well, u may ask y i dun wan go alone.
Cause it is no fun of goin shoppin alone.
N i gt lost easily even wif a GPS phone.
O well, wad can i do.
Normal frens r so many but close frens r so little.
I cant blame it.

Published with Blogger-droid v1.7.4

its been awhile

2011-10-05T20:31:00.001+08:00

Its been really awhile since i last blog.
Busy as usual n slackin as usual.
So sian to the max ar.

Anyway, i plannin to buy my boots by tis wk but like none of my frens r available.
Emo x2.
I really nid a new shoe. ><

O ya my aunt says she gonna pass mi the netbook when she gt a new battery for mi.
Not very expectin it anyway.

Ok i signin off now.

Published with Blogger-droid v1.7.4

so long nv blog

2011-09-22T09:56:00.001+08:00

Omg so long nv blog d.
Anyway recently im super restless,
But had alot of fun

O ya Sophia's buddy came frm jap.
I had a wonderful lesson on both last fri nite n sat.
I wanna learn more ><...

I shall update more again when im free.
O ya im bloggin through Android blog app.
So ya

Published with Blogger-droid v1.7.4

in office now

2011-08-17T18:56:00.002+08:00

erm currently in office now.

so yo, LOLZ.

anyway,

internship now is goin to b @ the mid period le.

omg so fast.

i wanna stay longer lah.

dunno y i dun feel like go back to sch.

i already dun remember how to program le.

LOLZ.

well, i dunno who i will teamin wif,

but i hope can team wif ppl i noe except for wenfu.

i find him very scary though. ==

anyway,

i tink we r gonna go off soon le.

i wonder how is every1 recently.

kinda miss them for the fun we had.

since we r not tgt but hope to celebrate b4 they go for SIP n we go for MP.

haiz,

feel like slpin now.

recently nv slp well.

o ya i will b headin down to bishan for my fren's band jammin.

hehe. so yup.

damn sian

2011-08-08T13:00:00.003+08:00

Damn sian recently.
im like no mood n damn restless.
Haiz....
recently i kinda like kana being watch.

i not sure y,
but suddenly feel like hatin myself.
so sian.
i kinda like to work alone already.
cause ppl juz say sumting dat i can work on my own.
but then i dun tink i can c my frens anymore.

So dark n dim.
god i feel like cryin.
cant c, cant sense.

like so hollow n dead.

so tired of livin in a world whr im invisible.

the past is dead.

both good n bad.

Birth Chart

2011-08-01T10:32:00.001+08:00

The Sun represents vitality, a sense of individuality and outward-shining creative energy.

Sun in Sagittarius

Restless, cheerful, and friendly, Sun in Sagittarius people are generally on the go. They have a love of freedom, and a disdain for routine. Generally quite easygoing, Sagittarians make friends with people from all walks of life. They love to laugh and tease, and get along well with both sexes. Sagittarians have an often blind faith in people, and in the world. Their optimism is infectious, although it can get them into trouble from time to time. These are curious people who love to learn. Their idealistic nature is hard to miss.

Although generally easygoing, Sagittarius is a fire sign. This gives natives a generally quick temper. Fortunately, they're usually as quick to forget what got them angry in the first place. The need for escape is generally strong, and some Solar Sagittarians come across as a little irresponsible. They're generally easy to forgive, however. After all, their direct, honest approach in life is admirable.

Short description:

She is good, idealistic, enthusiastic and warm-hearted. She is independent, has a taste for travel and freedom. She is curious and fair-minded.

Weaknesses: She is too adventurous and leaves things to chance: takes risks which cause problems: she is rebellious and sometimes tactless when offering opinions.

Sagittarius ascendant Sagittarius

Sun in XII

You have a tendency to be introspective and need some space and seclusion in order to pull up your strength. You may avoid the spotlight, and if you do find yourself in a public role, you tend to hide your true self behind that role! Because your will is directed inwards, you need to find a path for yourself that allows you to "get away from it all" at least some of the time. Honor your need to be alone with yourself, but avoid over-identifying with your inner world to the point that you truly feel alone in a crowd. You shine when you serve others in some way. Your compassion sets you apart from others, but try to work with it rather than let your compassion work against you by reinforcing your own sense of loneliness.

370 Conjunction Sun - Mars

You are enterprising and have powerful stores of energy that you can draw upon when needed. You respond to problems or challenges with a spirited and enthusiastic confidence that is admirable. You are naturally competitive, and this trait is generally well-received by others simply because it is unforced, unaffected, and sincere. You truly believe in fair play, and you seem to be in love with life. When you are expressing competitiveness and courage, it's easy for others to smile and accept these traits as positive ones rather than being rubbed the wrong way. You have good physical vitality. Although competitive, you are not naturally combative. You may enjoy sports or games that are competitive, but not violent. Breaking the rules of a competitive game is particularly upsetting to you. You are more able than most to control your desires, aggressions, and instincts. You know how to be fair, and you expect others to be fair. As such, sneaky behaviors, uncontrolled impulses, violence, and rage are offensive to you.

219 Sextile Sun - Saturn

It is easy and natural for you to accept responsibilities, to lead a rather ordered life, and to apply caution in your financial and business dealings. You rarely jump to conclusions or take uneducated risks. You have a certain amount of patience and enough self-discipline to slowly but surely achieve what you set out to do. Although somewhat undemonstrative, you are generally loyal and responsible people to those you care about. You take your time in most endeavors and generally use a step-by-step approach to most projects--but you steadily reach your goals. You are naturally trustworthy, and you don't have much patience for those who don't show respect for others, who take foolish risks, and who lead disorganized lives.

34 Conjunction Sun - Pluto

You have much sexual vitality and passion. It is easy and natural for you to find a passion and pursue it, and to focus on a goal. You are not much scared of anything. You enjoy and embrace growth, especially of the psychological kind. You love a good mystery, and you are adept at solving it.You readily assign meaning to what others might consider "ordinary" events. You look for symbols, and read between the lines in most any situation. The physical vitality is generally strong, and the body is usually able to heal quickly. You are not afraid to get your hands dirty, and you are usually quick to help others--not only with mundane tasks, but also on a spiritual or psychological level. Your insight is sharp and sometimes awe-inspiring. You are perceptive and not easily rattled or surprised in life. You are not a do-gooder nor are you a law-breaker. However, you are not afraid of the "dark side" of human nature, and you will bend the rules from time to time if you feel the need to do so. You take particular pleasure in growth and life's lessons. You are not fond of superficiality, and are generally the first to spot pretense of any kind. You are passionate and can be intense. You have a hunger to experience more than just an "ordinary" life, and you can be quite ambitious. Some people with this aspect are perfectionists, demanding much from themselves and reasonable amounts of effort and honesty from others.

The Moon represents the emotional responses, unconscious pre-destination, and the self-image.

Moon in Gemini

Lunar Geminis are usually pleasant, witty, and charming people. At home and with family, however, they can be moody and irritable at times. People with Moon in Gemini are always interesting people--they have a finger in every pie, are curious to a fault, and are generally well-informed. Nervousness and worry are common traits with this lunar position. An underlying restlessness is common, and many Lunar Geminis need more stimulation than others. They usually read a lot, talk a lot, and think a lot with this airy, mutable position of the Moon.

Their homes are often a perpetual work-in-progress. They generally dislike housework, but are big on home improvement. Re-organizing their homes in little--and sometimes big--ways seems to keep them happy, as Lunar Geminis are easily bored by both routine and constancy. Often, this is a reflection of their inner world--"the grass is always greener..." applies here. Inwardly, Lunar Geminis are often unsettled. Moon in Gemini parents are generally more adept at handling the intellectual needs of their children than emotional ones. Others' complicated emotions, in general, can be difficult for Lunar Geminis to handle. In their families, Lunar Geminis often take on the role of organizing get-togethers. They are at their best when they have plenty of things to do beyond routine. Moon in Gemini people almost always have a way with words. They are clever and witty, and more often than not can be found chatting with others. They are sociable and friendly, and feel comfortable in crowds. Some pay too much attention to what everyone else is doing, and lose touch with what they really want to do. Generally, Lunar Geminis have a million and one projects going. They are impressionable folk, and their imagination is boundless.

Their openness to new ideas is admirable, although decisiveness and persistence take a blow as a result. Still, versatility and adaptability are some of the stronger traits of this position of the Moon.When irritable, these people can easily become snappy. Their moodiness is complicated--this is not the same kind of moodiness you'll find with water sign moons, for example. Usually, difficult behavior stems from inner restlessness. Lunar Geminis want to do it all, and have trouble sticking to any one project. When problems arise, the first instinct of Moon in Gemini natives is to talk things out. Their tendency to analyze can give them the appearance of emotional detachment. In fact, Lunar Geminis may be especially comfortable talking about their feelings, but feeling their own feelings doesn't come as easily. Those that don't take time out to really emote and understand their own needs may end up baffling others. Feeling misunderstood is common for Moon in Gemini natives. The only real solution to the problem is learning to get in touch with their own feelings.

Short description:

Sharp intellect. She likes literature, adapts to all situations and social groups. Work in contact with the public, literary occupations, travel.

Weaknesses: lack of follow-up of ideas, indecision, goes back on decisions.

Moon in VI

Is not always a natural leader, but succeeds in being the right-hand of an important person. In most cases, she is an employee, worker etc. usually by choice. She likes the country, respects Nature and likes animals.

You have an emotional need to be useful, to work productively, to be organized and on top of things, and to lead a healthy life. If these matters are chaotic in your life, it's a symptom of emotional unrest. You need a lot of variety on the job--to be stimulated and engaged in order to feel happy. Some of you might seem to change jobs often, forever in search of the "perfect fit" job. Acceptance that any job requires some level of routine is hard for you. You are very sensitive, and especially aware of minor health annoyances or body aches and pains. Some of you have hypochondriac symptoms. Some attempt to get out of things they don't want to do by emphasizing health problems or even exaggerate illnesses in order to gain sympathy. At your best, however, you're a person who always helps out and shows your affection for others in practical ways in order to help them solve problems and improve their lives.

-46 Opposition Moon - Mercury

There is a conflict here between the head and the heart. Your emotions tell you one thing and your mind tells you something else. The result is a see-saw effect: you can be emotional to the point of irrationality at one moment, and logical the next. How to blend the head and the heart is a constant struggle for you, usually because you have a tendency to resist blending them! You love to chat, enjoy story-telling and writing/poetry, sometimes enjoy bending the truth, and you possess a sparkling wit! You are animated when you speak, and have a sense of humor that others appreciate simply because it's very imaginative. You may be especially adept at satire. People can usually read your mood by how much you're talking. When nervous or excitable, you talk up a storm. Moodiness is a characteristic, definitely, and an especially subjective nature makes you prone to hypersensitivity. It usually has to do with the fact that you take in so very much from your environment. This is also one of the reasons why you tend to be indecisive. You may swing between irrational and rational thoughts and feelings. It's pretty much something that takes place "upstairs" in the mind, although others are sure to see the struggle from time to time. You are always interesting, and usually funny. You have a tendency to misrepresent yourself with what you say from time to time, but you're a charming, if a little kooky, friend.

233 Trine Moon - Venus

You are generally amiable and project a soft and yielding manner. You possess natural charm and you are highly imaginative and sympathetic. You can make an excellent mediator and go-between. You are keenly aware of your need for relationships and for intimacy. You have a well-developed respect for qualities typically associated with the feminine. People appreciate you for your tender heart and friendly, diplomatic disposition. You should enjoy a good measure of personal popularity and success in your life. Although generally considered "lucky" with relationships and with money, this is less about luck than it is about a certain level of inner peace and positive energy that attracts pleasant situations. At times you can be complacent, downright lazy, and over-indulgent in the "pleasures" of life. However, you are a peace-maker at heart and have an unusual ability to help and heal others. You are gracious and warm.

-62 Square Moon - Jupiter

She is sometimes indifferent to others, to those who surround her: she is, without thinking, negligent and indecisive. She may "feed" inner restlessness with excesses in gambling, shopping, or other comforts, and her honesty is sometimes a bit elastic. This aspect does not help professional success, especially as she tends to spend more than she earns. Sometimes enthusiastic and gung-ho, and other times indifferent, it can be challenging for others to understand her. Needs to find constructive avenues for her inner restlessness.

-14 Opposition Moon - Ascendant

She is unhappily influenced by the family. She is probably loved insufficiently by her parents, but looks for more love especially from her mother. She is susceptible, has superficial sensitivity and is sometimes irascible.

Mercury represents communication, Cartesian and logical spirit.

Mercury in Sagittarius

Enthusiastic, humorous, and sometimes moralistic. She has strong opinions, and often shares them! Democrat, philosopher, tolerant, respectful of laws. Interested in foreign places and learning more languages. Believes that everything teaches you something.

Mercury in XII

She has difficulty expressing herself, especially when young. Does not talk much, she does not speak for the sake of it. She works in remote and quiet places. She is discrete and philosophical.

You are not very quick to speak or communicate, especially in childhood, as you need to develop trust in your own abilities to express yourself. You make an excellent confidante--you are very discreet and secrets go into the vault. You might make matters too complex by overanalyzing motives or hunches, and then have problems acting on your intuition as a result. You are very attracted to symbols, sentiment, imagery, and paradoxes. You prefer not to focus on facts and learn best when ideas are presented visually, emotionally, or imaginatively. Learning to communicate clearly is a challenge for you, but one that might put an end to feelings of guilt, of being misunderstood, and to attracting unpleasant situations or duplicitous people into your experience.

201 Conjunction Mercury - Ascendant

She is intelligent, with quick and lively reflexes. She is preoccupied by her circle, likes to exchange ideas with her friends, but also with strangers. Of an open nature, she goes out to others.

-53 Square Mercury - Midheaven

She has no specific aim in life. She frequently changes jobs, is unstable but likes change, which gives her the feeling of living intensely. Lots of activity as far as love is concerned - she has a full sex life.

Venus represents an interest for emotions and values, exchange and sharing with others.

Venus in Libra

Venus in Libra people will try to impress you with their kindness, evenhandedness, and willingness to make your relationship work. They have a polished manner in love, which sometimes makes them appear insincere or superficial. They are gentle lovers who hate to be offended. They are threatened by bad manners and direct or abrasive expression of feelings. They not only prefer to choose the middle road, they seek the middle ground in their relationships. You can expect to be treated fairly, and you may be turned on by Venus in Libra's willingness to concede and adjust their lives to fully accommodate you. Venus in Libra men and women have idealized images of their relationships, even to the point where the relationship becomes bigger than life, taking on a life of its own. They can become quietly resentful if they feel they are being taken advantage of -- and they make it easy for more aggressive types to bully them around.

Pleasing Venus in Libra involves treating them kindly and fairly. They love to share everything with you, so let them. Foreplay for them can be mental -- they love to communicate with you about the relationship. Sharing turns them on, and tactless or uncouth behavior is a turn-off. Although they seem to put up with a lot, be fair with them. Over time, imbalance in their relationship is sure to make them unhappy, and when it comes to this, they may try to even the score in subtle, roundabout ways. Don't let it come to that, and you will be rewarded with a lover who puts themselves in your shoes and treats you exactly how they would like to be treated.

Venus in X

Her best years are in the parental home and also the last years of life. That said, the rest are not unhappy, but contain certain hurdles. Love can help in professional life, she has a gift for seduction. She likes to entertain: she likes comfort and the attractions of home-life.

Others tend to respect you for your charming manner, and you have many admirers, although some of these are admirers from afar, as there is an aura about you that is charming yet strangely (and intriguingly) distant. You have a great need to be recognized or admired for your charm, beauty, or loving manner, but should be careful not to become too wrapped up in what others think of you, as you might come across as phony or superficial. Some people with this position are "married" to their work or to their image. You are good at making contacts and organizing social events.

-66 Square Venus - Uranus

She looks for new sensations in love and is often unsatisfied by affairs which quickly turn into purely conventional relationships. She likes novelty, adventure, the eccentric: she is frivolous, unstable, unfaithful. Marriage is not for her and, if she does throw herself into this adventure, it will end in divorce, written off as a youthful mistake. As a result of her numerous love affairs, she makes sure her line is continued.

-135 Square Venus - Neptune

She might lack self-confidence and her ideals are not easy to achieve. In love, she is unstable and deceitful or meets people who are like this. She is easy-going and follows others' wishes in love, and she lets the partner take the initiative.

This aspect indicates a suggestible romantic nature. Being "in love with love" is a strong possibility. You are naturally compassionate and are generally willing to go over the top for a loved one. It's hard to say whether your expectations in personal relationships are too high or too low. On the one hand, you tend to easily accept behaviors in your partners that others wouldn't accept, as you are compassionate and even drawn to people who others might consider trouble. On the other hand, your romantic dreams may be so powerful that you are easily disappointed with the reality of relationships. Deception in love is possible, but self-deception is even more likely. In love, you see what you want to see, rather than what is. Feelings of being used or deceived may come up. However, if a distinct pattern exists in your love life that involves you being let down, deceived or used, it will be especially worthwhile to examine whether self-deception was at work.

The possibility of clinging to romantic delusions is very high with this position. For example, some with these aspects cling to a romantic notion that someone loves them when in reality that person doesn't return the affection. Or, they may cling to a romance that has lost all hope. Another possibility is devoting their love to someone who is unattainable or who is unable to commit. Yet another Venus-Neptune scenario is loving someone who treats them badly, all the while clinging to an idealized image of the partner. No matter what the scenario, romantic yearning and longing, as well as delusion, tends to be the theme. The expectation here is that loving someone requires self-sacrifice. The result is an attraction to relationships that are co-dependent and even abusive. Venus-Neptune people are drawn to victim/savior relationships, and they can play either the role of victim or savior! Dependency or neediness in a partner can be confused for love. In an attempt to love unconditionally, you may too readily sacrifice your own needs and eventually feel used.

Mars represents the desire for action and physical energy.

Mars in Scorpio

Mars in Scorpio natives love to challenge themselves to do the impossible. They throw themselves into what they decide to do with concentrated energy and awesome willpower. These people make formidable opponents, although often quietly so. They keep their cool and their equilibrium on the surface. Below the surface may be another story, and they are unlikely to easily let you in. Mars in Scorpio has the potential to exploit others--these people see through others, and rely heavily on their gut feelings. The sexual stamina of this position is thought to be the strongest of all the positions of Mars. Sometimes, Mars in Scorpio people are attracted to taboos, and their fantasies may involve blowing the taboos to smithereens! They enjoy scenarios in which the "other" is giving in to them, wants them completely, and will do absolutely anything for them. And, their sexual appeal is strong enough that they generally do get what they want.

They find it difficult to share their partners, though they will likely never admit this. In stark contrast to Mars in Libra, who is most comfortable with the middle ground, Mars in Scorpio has a black-or-white philosophy of life. These are the people who say, "Just choose!" They really are not comfortable with compromise--what kind of satisfaction could you possibly get from compromise? Real living, to Mars in Scorpio, is all about accepting challenges and making changes. These people constantly test themselves, and, often, others. They make all kinds of rules and goals, just for the personal satisfaction that comes from achieving or mastering them. Their survival instincts are strong, and they embrace their own animal nature when they are all alone with themselves, without guilt.

These people have a provocative quality to them. This quality is usually most evident in youth, though it is often carried over into adulthood in more subtle, controlled ways. Mars in Scorpio natives who have low self-esteem can become mighty twisted. Instead of beating themselves up, they turn self-loathing outward, and end up manipulating others and feeling resentful. While Mars in Libra is constantly striving to bring fairness to the world, Mars in Scorpio knows that life simply isn't fair.

Mars in XII

All her energy is put into the work life. She loves research. She could be a lab worker, doctor, police officer, teacher specializing in hospital, prison or hospice work..

316 Conjunction Mars - Pluto

She is ambitious, has a great capacity for work, has self-confidence and goes to the end of her plans.

25 Sextile Mars - Midheaven

She has a good sense of organization. She knows how to take the necessary decisions rapidly, is independent and uses all her energy to succeed socially.

Jupiter represents expansion and grace.

Jupiter in Virgo

She attracts the most good fortune when she is helpful, honest, orderly, and pays attention to details. The service industries, nutrition, and health are prosperous avenues. Practical and technical knowledge and skills are most valued. A real problem solver and others appreciate her help. Doesn't always feel lucky or especially ambitious. Rather, hard work is valued.

Jupiter in IX

Deeply intelligent, she is tolerant and sincere. Professional success can happen abroad or in connection with foreign countries. Faraway voyages are profitable.

50 Trine Jupiter - Uranus

She knows what's going on at a glance. She thirsts after knowledge, and is a good organizer. She is very independent, likes her freedom of action, is a non-conformist. She is very agreeable company and is always in demand.

34 Trine Jupiter - Neptune

She is very generous and altruistic, helping people in difficulty or sick people. She knows how to listen or, at least, how to give that impression. She is a dreamer, with lots of imagination: she likes the Arts.

2 Conjunction Jupiter - Midheaven

She is a high liver, likes to have fun but knows what she wants and does whatever necessary to get it. She wants to - and does - succeed socially. After a hard day's work, a good well-lubricated meal in the company of friends is just the ticket.

Saturn represents contraction and effort.

Saturn in Aquarius

Long-term studies and, if family circumstances do not allow this, she will teach herself. She is serious and methodical in work. Likes to visit the elderly and intellectuals, who both enrich her mind.

Weaknesses: bad luck, adversity, problems and disappointed hopes.

Saturn in II

If she is rich, will always give the impression of being in financial difficulties. If she is broke, she gives the same impression - this time with reason. She fears being without money, and may be especially cautious with possessions and finances as a result.

Uranus represents individual liberty, egoistic liberty.

Uranus in Capricorn

A great battler. She has so much power, that one thinks nothing can defeat her. Her mission in society, in the world means everything to her.

Uranus in I

She is above all independent and original. Sometimes blunt and irritable. Never lets herself be influenced. She does not tolerate any sort of setback. She is ready for adventure, even though it's risky.

133 Conjunction Uranus - Neptune

Neptune represents transcendental liberty, non-egoistic liberty.

Neptune in Capricorn

She is discerning, wise and sensible.

Neptune in I

She is intuitive, sensitive. Not a fighter and is indecisive. May have some identity problems until she decides on a more spiritual or artistic path. May be psychic or simply strongly intuitive. Gentle and yielding.

2 Trine Neptune - Midheaven

Her plans lack realism and are therefore often unattainable.

Pluto represents transformations, mutations and elimination.

Pluto in Scorpio

Great sexual activity.

18 Sextile Pluto - Midheaven

She uses all her energy to succeed professionally. She has a good sense of organization and authority.

House I is the area of self identity. The ascendant is a symbol of how one acts in life. It is the image of the personality as seen by others, and the attitude that one has towards life.

Sagittarius ascendant Sagittarius

Ascendant in Sagittarius

The world is filled with adventure, new things to experience, and, most of all, hope, with this Ascendant. There is an unmistakable faith and enthusiasm with Sagittarius rising people. Grand schemes, big promises, and a willingness to explore and experiment are themes, although follow-through is not a strong characteristic of Sagittarius. These individuals are somewhat restless and often active people. They always seem to be looking for something that is just out of grasp -- and many do this their entire lives. They can be quite direct at times, yet they are likable enough to forgive for their faux-pas. Most have a lot to say and offer. Their insights and opinions are usually interesting and exciting, although sometimes lacking in details.

Sagittarius rising people have opinions about everything, and they just love telling others exactly what they are. Not all people with this position are outgoing folk, but they all have a way of moving about that at least exudes a certain level of confidence. Some might even call them naive or overly optimistic. Even the quiet ones don't shrink from life and from experience. One of the most obvious and endearing traits of Sagittarius rising is their willingness to keep up a sense of humor. Even when they're feeling low, they manage to find humor in life and have fun with whatever they do have. The placement of Sagittarius' ruling planet, Jupiter, will give more clues to how they go about expressing themselves. Jupiter in Capricorn, for example, might give a more sarcastic approach, but underneath there lies an unmistakable hope and spirit for living.

House II is the area of material security and values. It rules money and personal finances, sense of self-worth and basic values, personal possessions.

House II in Capricorn

A cautious approach to money and personal finances, possessions. Financial success may be slow but steady.

House III is the area of social and intellectual learning.

House III in Aquarius

She is always at the forefront of progress. Likes everything that is new, original and ingenious. Likes every new idea, as long as it improves life and naturally is good for everyone. She is happy to travel even at a moment's notice, likes a life full of change and meetings.

House IV is the area of home, family, roots, and deep emotions/sense of self-worth.

House IV in Pisces

She is very susceptible to the mood of those around her. A hard difficult upbringing can mark her for life. When a child, has to be protected, given confidence.

House V is the area of creative self-expression, romance, entertainment, children, and gambling.

House V in Aries

Full of initiative. Things are done to the full, with energy, vigor and strength of purpose: It is the same with love life. Children will be hardy and rarely ill.

House VI is the area of learning by material transaction.

House VI in Taurus

Completely trusted at work. Knows how to keep a secret and is of irreproachable honesty. Weak point: the throat.

House VII is the area of one-to-one relationships such as marriage and partnership, and of social and intellectual action.

House VII in Gemini

Marries quite young, and divorces later. A second marriage doubtless with less passion but a lot of friendship. Frightened of living alone in old age.

House VIII is the area of emotional security and of security of the soul.

House VIII in Cancer

Small inheritances.

House IX is the area of learning that shapes the identity.

House IX in Leo

She is tolerant, accepts all differences and respects them. She is honest and loyal.

House X is the area of material action. The Mid-heaven represents the work one will do in his life, the place one will take in the world of society. It becomes more important as one grows older

House X in Virgo

All medical, paramedic or social work are recommended.

House XI is the area of search for social and intellectual security.

House XI in Libra

Looks for friends among "well-placed" people, artists known even regionally, influential people in society, the social or political world, likes high class evenings.

House XII is the area of education and of emotion.

House XII in Scorpio

Work in the police field, likes investigating other people's private lives.

3wks??

2011-07-24T21:39:00.001+08:00

i guess it had been 3wks since i last blog.

hmm, nth much juz busy lately n oso sick.

well, im on SIP now.

kinda fun than stress.

it is totally no stress @ all seriously.

i enjoy more than studyin.

workin life is really gd.

but i dunno y tere is stress around.

mayb bcause im not doin those tough work and etc.

hmm, mayb bah.

well, Yuki's band Nameless recently juz did a concert.

it is nice actually.

to be frank, they gt a gd vocalist.

but sumhow, the vocalist nv make full use of the stage.

all i c is movin back n forth. @~@

is not really a gd movement i can say.

but their band is very mature.

meanin is tere d.

but if they can push themselves a little more,

i tink they r tere d.

For EvokeR, i tink they can improve even more.

is a small band but is gd d.

mayb they can add more feelins on songs.

well, not to offence u guyz,

but i tink the vocalist can put feelins throughout the songs.

not juz for tis part n dat part then jiu ok le.

songs are meant to b sendin out messages to the audience to tell them the story of the song.

and MV is onli the guideline.

so yup.

hven been writtin songs but will touch up on it when my term exam ends.

although it ends but i still hv JLPT.

so probably will b less focus on others.

i dunno y i state im not gonna take the test.

but sumhow i cant gt myself away frm it.

n i oso dunno y i wanna do the test.

more like i wanna test my ability.

which i hven been really usin them.

but i start everyting frm the begin again.

anyway,

i gt back my lappy d.

but i gt a feelin dat it wont last dat super duper long.

cause the person told mi dat the screen gt prob d.

so ask mi to b prepared for the worst.

which i already forsake tis d.

well, im not really dat worried wad if i dun hv a comp.

ya i noe my new phone cant do everyting.

then i shall do all in sch then.

so ya.

haiz, recently is really hot like siao.

dun really like it so much.

i prefer rainin.

kinda dun mind if im outside or inside,

it is much better than the hot sun dat burn my skin till everything go worsen.

anyway,

to sum1 who noe dat im sayin u.

pls dun keep say other ppl not independent when u oso rely on others.

now is more like u r usin others.

dun say others too much bcause in the end,

u r the one gettin dat prob more.

u can say u wont but u r not even 30yrs old u better dun do it.

how to prove to u?

use my bro as an example bah.

say ppl too much bcome like tis now.

o ya, n oso dun keep say abt how useless others r when u urself is not really dat useful.

when is really the day u r always as strong as ever?

u cant be strong-willed all the time.

sure tere is time whr u fall.

so stop sayin dat u r really dat strong.

if u r so, then u r lyin to urself.

im not tryin to b a coward to frame u.

im not dat as free as u r.

n i dun tink i hv to the rite to do tis too.

cause i noe how weak n strong i m.

if u wanna say others, reflect it on urself first.

lappy died again

2011-07-04T20:36:00.002+08:00

ok, lappy died again.
lolz.
so now i cant play games n etc.
well, im bloggin through my bro de gonna die lappy,
so it is not my lappy.

ok, well, first ting first.
2day is the first day of my SIP.
everyting went ok n fine.
kinda gt to do new tings dat hv no relations to programmin *happy in lala land*.
so yup, gt to know more ppl in the company n everyting is ok.

but then,
we nid to do the journal tingy,
but the stupid ting is dat we cant log in.
hence 2day no nid do.
damn fk up sia TP.
everyting CMI.
wakau.
it is not the first time they do tings wifout checkin le loh.
irritatin.
best part is, they nv state the report must b uploaded @ wad time.
n tere is no system for us to throw in the report.
how best can tis b sia. ==
argh, cant stand TP the way they do tings.

anyway,
kinda tired cause wake up too early le. ><
gonna slp now to recharge.
nite ppl. xD

wow, SIP startin soon

2011-06-23T20:20:00.002+08:00

lolz, SIP startin soon le.

n my frens already gt their MP notices liao.

mine i gotta wait till i finish SIP then will noe.

i wonder if i can b in same group as larry anot.

o well, is Joon Yew set de.

so im not plannin to expect dat in the first place.

well, mon is presentation le.

but i hven print the namecard yet.

even my house nearby de printin shop already close down le. ==

great.

now waitin for larry to reply if the name card can or not.

cause i nid to print it by tml le.

if not no whr to print them already.

o GOD.

tis time round i really nv do my job well.

Pink Dot event

2011-06-18T19:32:00.003+08:00

woot,

went to Pink Dot event wif larry, sam, ruth n ken.

is fun tere.

omg. u c diff ppl. n they were so cool.

n everywhr @ clark quey is pink when im tere.

it is so awesome.

OMG OMG OMG.

i wanna go again nxt yr.

recently i play back maple wif my sec sch fren.

i tried new chara, but i still love the wild hunter 1.

cause i can ride on a Jaguar n hit monster.

n ya i make my chara very baby like.

haha.

omg recently i hv been slpin @ near 1am.

kinda tired but cant fall aslp.

then fall aslp liao kana nitemare.

wth. ==

ouch it is really damn stress recently.

o ya,

i tink on thurs or wed i cant remember,

i let Yuki read my lyrics dat i wrote.

he kinda likes it.

he said dat the latest one was gd.

hehe kinda happy.

but is my true story. xD

i will write more of it. xD

i gt a jap version in my mind.

sad song atm i probably not plannin to write.

plannin for a happy 1. xD

formspring.me

2011-06-14T14:11:00.001+08:00

Ask me anything http://formspring.me/shiroihikaru

weird sia

2011-06-12T23:00:00.003+08:00

kinda weird,

first ting first, recently tere is like sum air particles chokin my throat tere,

while either im talkin or singin. =/

it kinda happened for like a wk le bah.

pretty irritatin cause cant gt it out. ==

o ya, well, i kinda back to normal le. yeah!!

but hor, thx to the MGPG, i feel like cryin now. ==

thx ar.

i dunno whr the hell is the prob lies,

the best ting is dat none of my frens could help mi cause every1 doin diff codin. ==

best, now im really doom.

anyway,

sophia said dat their MGPG will b launch offically in gambit.

so when it is available we can play it.

she said is kinda related to LGBT de.

i wanna play sia.

n tere is no relation to my Yaoi fetish pls. ==

plannin to use the boy frm ouran high as my model le. xD

my Yuri one im done.

postin up soon when im free.

which i dunno when.

n i broke my skills le.

i done a super awesome shadin compare to the past i did.

weee~~~

aw, i tink i nid more sugar.

i kinda lack of sugar lately.

actin more n more cranky n weird.

but then, im truely fine le.

pls dun come n bother mi abt those stupid shit.

bad memories hv become a lesson learnt.

gd memories are always n will always b in my dream.

till the end of my life ends.

1 wk juz passes like tis?

2011-06-09T22:16:00.002+08:00

er ok,

1 wk juz passes like tis?

is like wifout knowingly,

time passes so fast.

ok, well,

i passed my autograph book to midzi already.

mayb askin it back on MGPG submission day.

ok,

well, Yuki band juz came out wif a new Singles, called 机会(Chance in english).

performed by Yuki's band which is the Evoker.

they actually perform in many places.

so ya, video is below here so pls do listen and support them.

well, im not sure if im able to finished my MGPG.

gt a feelin dat i might nid to resubmit.

kinda worried.

every1 said dat mine gonna finish but then i kinda stuck in the place whr even CM oso cannot help. ==

how awesome can dat b sia.

haiz,

im seriously so lost abt it.

@-@

numbin??

2011-06-05T23:39:00.002+08:00

ah,

damn, skin prob comes n rage on mi again.

gonna c doc tml le.

skin crackin, sticky water juice leakin, skin peelin n sorin.

it really hurts sia.

now i type i cant use my left pinky finger to press the keyboard button oso.

the side of my left palm oso startin to sore badly le.

damn scare sia.

mandy lao gong goin to hong kong tis tues.

i asked her to buy mi 1 rabbit plushie back frm tere.

wee....

hope can gt it. xD

im gettin tired

2011-06-04T21:51:00.002+08:00

wah...

recently play until goin to 1am.

OMG. i tink i gonna go siao d.

seriously, i dunno y im so in love wif all FF games.

mayb is the story and the gameplay bah.

which really draws my attention to it.

been playin FF10 recently.

hope can play FF12 too.

but i doubt can lah cause no1 can help mi wif the torrent. ==

listenin back to Daite Senorita again.

omg, tis song really reminds mi of my frens they dance for tis song.

so cool lah.

but then i lost contact wif nelle le. ==

i wonder how is she.

hmm....

anyway,

BSCG down, left GAUD n MGPG.

i tink i can start the gameplay by tml after i reach home frm my JLPT preparation class.

well, i didnt wanna take tis yr de actually,

but i already decided on goin for the preparation class le.

so mayb might as well go take the exam.

not sure how, but i hope i can do it.

but i hven practice sia. ==

no mood bah.

c FF in front of mi whr gt mood for studies le sia.

LOLZ.

anyway,

i tink im back to normal for now le.

kinda feels alittle sad but still ok.

is normal lah.

if i dun hv tis kind of feelins means sumting is wrg wif mi le. ==

o ya i finish 1 lyric le.

after such a long break,

finally 1 come out.

well im plannin for the jap 1.

but hven tot of any gd 1 yet.

so gotta wait awhile then.

finally internet

2011-05-31T21:35:00.002+08:00

yeah yeah,

internet was down ytd so i cant do most of the stuff dat i should b doin.

well erm,

lately i hven been myself,

but then i kinda fine wif it.

im not sure if tis is the best for mi,

but then, i hven been really smilin happily as i m.

tings r goin tougher and tougher.

sumtimes when i smile or laugh,

it turns cold in a sec.

so cold n hollow.

i dunno wad to do.

while watchin drama dat time,

sumhow tis came into my mind:

The wave separated us,

Just like Heaven and Hell.

Water of Calm and Passion of Fire

Were enemies from the beginning.

pretty weird sia.

i tink i goin nuts soon.

probably might folo jay steps.

but im fine wif it.

we r almost the same though.

although the wave hv settled,

but it had killed many ppl durin dat period.

all i noe is the eyes of ppl hv changed.

though sum ppl kinda treat it didnt happen @ all.

but can sense dat tings hv changed entirely n diffly.

dat 1 cant help le.

im not expecting sumting gd.

when "it" is frozen,

"it" melts away by ur touch.

but then, u lost ur warmth after it.

Hence, "it" went back to it frozen state again.

nxt time when u warmed it again,

remember to keep some warmth for urself too.

so as "it" will last tere 4eva.

so tired, so confused, so vexed. @~@

wad m i doin??

2011-05-26T20:15:00.002+08:00

ok, recently hven been bloggin for weeks.

everyting changes sumhow.

ever since i hv changed n bcome weird?

i guess is for the best bah.

i may looked pure as u guyz tot but im not.

hence, dun b too gd too mi cause in the end the one who gt hurt is u not mi.

im always hurtin within so im used to it le.

juz read one of my fren written on msn.

makes mi feel like doin sumting dat i like.

even im not, i oso wanna do those on my own.

keep dependin on others makin mi cant grow.

even till now, i didnt really grow or progress in anyting.

bcause im so pampered n spoiled,

dats y i cant grow.

im not sure if i really wanna go jap n further my education.

but so far i noe,

all i wanna leave tis place cause i nv love the place whr im born.

so many sorrow memories dat cant b erase.

cant b heard, cant b saved.

even i said, the listener oso show no concern in their tone of their voice.

i noe who these ppl are,

dats y i nv wan to share wif them.

even so, i oso dun even wan to listen their advice,

cause they nv take mi seriously.

so wad is the point then?

i dun mind keep it to myself.

even i keep it to myself other ppl dunno angry for wad.

sum more angry so long.

4gt it man.

even so i still rather bottom up everyting.

i really wanna sum1 who can really listen to mi.

an actual person who really listen to wad i wanna say.

seriously, i dun really feel like goin back to c ms farida le.

one ting she like is to dig out my past even though is not counsellin le.

i seriously, hate dat part now.

well, if u do dat like once or twice is ok.

but then, the issues hv no relates to other part,

y still wanna brin it in?

so dat u can c sum1 in pain is it?

i tink she purposely wanna do dat de.

cant take it really.

on the bus sum more ask the same question.

like doubtin in my answers.

wtf is tis man.

4gt it, i wanna b the lonely mi again.

the pure side shall keep n locked within,

as long as no1 calls mi again,

it wont awake.

i gonna b like sum1 who used to b like tis.

is gd rite?

weee

2011-05-19T20:10:00.003+08:00

ok, everyting is fine except for 1.

MGPG. yup tis 1.

well, juz started my GAUD assignment 2 juz now.

done we storyboard n gt our bgm already.

so now is left wif effect again.

for BSCG, i did almost i had le.

now i nid more research on the similar games,

development cost n etc.

nid do chart n tables i tink.

dat wad mgg said.

hmm, i tink i probably gonna ask jay help for MGPG.

since they started usin it b4 we do.

n i tink the programmin stuff r almost the same.

o ya, juz gt all the sailormoon OST from him. xD

yeah, now i tink i can do MGPG le.

i planned for wad i wanna do so everyting is ok. xD

ok fair enough i wanna slp.

2011-05-16T12:38:00.002+08:00

ok nice, i feel like slpin now.
recently really everyting done very badly.
ya i noe, i do very little even i start early in it.
so i cannot complain.

probably, u r askin wad prob i hv.
er i dun hv an actual prob.
but more like i wanna do tings earlier.
but then most of it is group work so.
i dun tink i can expect dat le.

now MGPG i start write part of the codin liao.
but i nid to noe how to put in the background picture as a fixed one.
through frame reg can but i dunno how to implement it.
CM nv really show much so gotta try here n tere for now.

talkin abt audio,
i c other group r ok.
onli mine abit startin to go side way d.
n i tink midzi group oso abit le.
seriously, i prefer ppl who really did alot n complain than ppl who did nth or alittle n complain.
which i mean is dat i dun mean u complain to mi on how much u did more than mi.
but if u did very little, dun pls shut up.
u should hv started early come on.
larry im not talkin abt u, so dun gt mi wrg.

i begin to realise dat i cant tag along wif my cliques le.
like startin to hv a huge gaps.
even though tere has already been a gap but it gt wider.
ya, im not sure y.
but all i noe is dat.
cause is yr 3, n everyting is gonna b tough like hell.
which is thrice as tough as O lvls.
n i begin to b serious wif my work while others r still wonderin around.
gt depress then cannot do work those kind. ==

im not sure if i hv grown up already or not.
cause i keep actin n tryin to b like the same as other teenagers.
but i realise i cant communicate wif them???
weird huh, i tink i can gt along wif the aunties n uncles but not teenagers.
cause i dun belong tere.
even adults im ok wif them.
well, bcause teenagers nv bother abt all the probs comin.
they juz count one day by one day.
one step by one step.
die jiu die those kind.
which i dun understand y.

so ya, anyway,
now ok liao.
every1 doin work. =/
n im slackin here WTF

guyz r such a liar.

2011-05-14T11:31:00.002+08:00

seriously, guyz are really the biggest liar on earth.

except for the gayz.

tink abt it.

u guyz can say wadeva promises or tings out of ur mouth,

but did u guyz really did it?

out of 10 promises onli 1 is done.

how to trust.

seriously, im so not gonna trust a guy till he shows mi dat he can b trusted.

recently alot of tings happen.

im not gonna put here cause it is gonna b ragin.

is gd dat i left Smith's Fish & Chips shop.

cause if i work back tere again,

i will b workin ALONE again.

even though i DID ask ppl to ACCOMPANY mi,

it turn out they say NO on mi but YES on others.

(pls read those CAPS words n u will noe y im angry.)

so ya,

i rather work on others whr is a place whr they accept ppl who always gt push aside n work ALONE.

argh, so hate tis kind of tings around mi.

but then, i still wanna thx sher for tellin mi.

if not i gonna b ragin even worst.

i rather sum1 tell mi eariler than later.

i can handle criticizes n comments.

those r really hashed but at least i noe.

the more u keep it away frm mi,

the more u lost trust on mi.

so ya, i can dun depends u,

u can say u dun nid mi.

since every1 is born alone in tis world,

n diff path to seek.

so y bothers.

seriously, i cannot understand y others dun agree abt wad i said.

when i said dat im ugly, i mean it.

n u all keep say NO when inside is a YES.

for ppl who say no i can c, but others, i cant.

cause u guyz r comparin mi wif the worst.

so how to state the fact dat im ugly sia.

seriously, use 1 dat can b compare pls if u guyz wanna do dat.

nxt time, if i said dat im ugly, pls say YES instead of NO.

recently, jay has been watchin sailormoon.

i gt the whole season + movies + specials epi from him oso.

he oso like sailor mercury OMG.

hi-5 bro.

i tink i kinda quite alike to jay.

though we hv diff background stories,

but everyting r almost the same.

dats y i can gt along wif him.

seriously, it is hard to find ppl like tis.

whr they r almost same as u.

nv been tis tired ever since 2.1

2011-05-09T23:01:00.003+08:00

i hv n v been so tired till recently sia.

seriously, i tink i hv been doin hw,

read sum jap stuff then slp d.

didnt even play any games.

even dad every nite phrase hv change oso.

from "dun play so late" to "dun study so late".

feel so much better.

n is gd.

plannin to slp soon though,

but so addicted to BREAKERZ song.

omg, dun even feel like loggin off.

n installin iTunes in the meantime.

o ya my bro told mi dat i might take over his mac nxt yr.

which is not bad.

but i dunno wad m i suppose to do wif it. ==

lolz. o well.

after installin finish i go slp liao. xD

tired le. =/

heng tml class until 3.

can go home rest early. xD

NAFA test 2day

2011-05-05T22:15:00.002+08:00

o god, NAFA test 2day,

mi n my frens r all half dead.

sher almost throw out after 2.4,

sophia throw out durin the return of tag.

larry i tink he over-exhausted le.

im tired le oso.

gonna slp soon anyway.

well, recently really alot of tings to chiong.

though it looks light but it is not really dat light.

so ya loh.

i tink i go drink sumting then go slp le

so many depressed ppl around @-@

2011-05-04T11:00:00.002+08:00

ok, recently tere are alot of depress ppl around.

well most of them gt the relationship prob.

n most i noe r my cliques. =/

no offence here ppl.

it is really abit weird lah.

cause u noe.

u r fine n then suddenly u r in a group of ppl who r so depress,

which makes u feel pressured n weird.

no offence here.

im not depress rite now anyway,

cause too many tings comin n i nid to b focus on tings dat should b done now.

worried for SIP or MP is not the issue for now i can say.

cause we hv other tings to worry abt for tis current term.

y tink abt tings dat is so far ahead.

it onli makes u more depressed n worried for nth.

anyway, later MPGP my cliques r gonna discuss abt the game dat we gonna used.

we took Code 3 which is super hard.

n i didnt expect to do frm beginner to hard mode cause im sux in programmin.

is not i choose it or wad but then majority wins.

but i kinda gt a feelin dat i probably b doin a 2nd submission on tis assignment.

well, those noe mi sure noes dat i cant code.

n tis is the ting im worried abt cause by the time we can start doin,

it is already wk 3 or 4 liao.

if im not wrg we should b handin in by wk 7.

then wk 8 or 9 is resubmission.

then wk 10 is presentation on the game.

lolz. dead le lah.

i cant depend on the team cause i tink they might b dyin on it oso.

then other ppl oso cannot cause diff version.

o well, fate bah.

i tink im weird among them rite now cause im the one perfectly fine.

im not showin off or wad.

mayb u guyz dun like to read tis.

but then im really ok.

i cant help u guyz but can onli lend ya my ears.

wan to use it or not is up to u le.

first wk n is a busy one

2011-05-01T22:49:00.002+08:00

wow, first wk of sch ends so fast.

well, everyday is fine atm.

2 reports should b a no prob 1.

but the programmin probably i nid more help le bah.

lolz.

well, hvin ytd tired myself out wif the help out in sophia event.

get to noe sum ppl.

but the prob is the event most of them r cheena ppl. ==

then the worst is dat i been usin chinese the whole day @ the registration part.

n they r so hao lian oso. sum of them i can say. ==

o ya, almost completed FFIV The After Years le.

tryin to gt deeper in the moon part whrby nid to gt Cecil's soul back.

n cool dat can gt a couple of new chara in as well.

is very diff frm the previous one n is still fun.

love the story too. xD

2day had my first day of JLPT N3 preparation class in one of my sensei's mom house.

well, pretty cool though, but my frens n i were lost while findin the place. ==

then the papers is so hard dat we onli managed to finish 2 sections of paper 3.

the whole ting is too hard le.

i cant understand most of the sentences inside the paper itself.

o god, n im doin the past paper of JLPT 2 which is the current JLPT N2.

@_@ ouch.

anyway, doin audio elearnin now.

so later.. xD

first day back to sch

2011-04-25T21:04:00.002+08:00

well, first day back to sch.

im a senior now.

wow. time really flies.

anyway,

sumhow recently my FF4 like kana hvin prob.

keep after battle the zeromus it keep dced. ==

well, dat 1 is the endin part n i cant gt to watch a gd better quality of animation.

no idea y it lag like hell.

well,

gonna try again if possible.

well, nth much when sch starts.

everyting is the same.

juz dat larry slim down alot.

then alot ppl cut their hair.

no others.

all still as normal.

to b frank,

tis term starts tere isnt any much tings to do.

more like u do ur hw in sch which is sumting dat i like abt.

nth much to write 2day.

erm, juz feel like sch gettin more n more bland.

long time no come here d

2011-04-19T22:26:00.002+08:00

haha,

long nv come here d.

well, everyting fine juz dat tis wk gt 1 jap test.

omg, no outline of the test n i dun tink is easy till i can dun nid to study @ all. ==

well, im not goin for the jap national exam tis time,

but im goin for the classes.

wanna noe wad is goin on.

realise i cant really speak in jap already.

n completely.

im not sure wad im doin,

mayb bcause im juz too lost to look for ppl who can speak jap wif mi.

o btw,

sch startin soon.

means tere is 1 business course tis sem n 1 programmin n 1 audio.

sounds fun but still gonna make it big.

i tink still gt chance to make my cGPA grow though.

well, i dun tink i gonna nid to worry for my Uni money.

but still im goin to work for a yr.

but i dunno as wad n i dun tink im ready either.

not sure wad im afraid of though i hv seen many situation already.

c how bah. still gt 2yrs to plan.

well, rite now im really fine n livin well.

juz dat recently i didnt slp well. ==

hope 2nite i can slp soundly.

gonna hand in the form to sch for bursary.

i wonder how is every1 now.

hven been talk to them.

o ya, im preparin the graduation letter.

well, i wanna do tis cause i wanna tell them how much i appreciate them in my life.

im not really juz sayin.

though i dunno how to show much.

hmm

2011-04-14T16:05:00.003+08:00

omg,

tis is so irritatin.

probably should ask the person to help mi reformat the whole comp instead.

well, i might b usin back Vista if i reformat.

but then it is better than it keep gifin mi prob.

first was the CPU overheated,

then the comp kana water cause of humidity.

now is the sound board prob. ==

irritatin.

my plug in now cannot work @ all.

haiz,

means i nid to send to the person again n again.

i tink the person oso sian.

my comp so many prob.

but sumhow.

i dunno y he onli do the stuff dat is fault n nv check the rest.

so weird.

but then,

i did all my backups already.

so means i gt my story on my portable harddisk.

i realise i can survive wifout a comp.

well, i will nid a comp when i really nid it.

cause even i hv comp,

all i do is to turn on n stare on it.

if not, sum of my fren will ask mi to play game which awhile later im bored of it.

well, game can help to kill time,

but then i find dat tere r other stuff dat can also help to kill time.

dun really nid to depend on computer games.

hmm, mayb i hv grown up.

startin to tink for future now i tink.

though i cant c it, which is a pity.

but i try to reach the goal i set.

probably is gd bah.

anyway,

recently im so pissed wif ppl who r so god damn petty.

my bro is one of them, kean oso.

i told kean dat he n kat share the same attitude prob,

whrby they dun even listen to other ppl advice when they r doin sumting wrg in the first place.

ya i noe u guyz gt ur own way of workin.

but then advice frm ppl who r always @ dat section knows well than u should listen.

ya i noe, u gt ur own way of workin but u r not workin @ the same damn place alone,

whrby u can hack care other ppl words.

u r workin in a place whr every1 r tere workin.

so stop dat stupid fkin attitude prob.

if not u will end up fired like ML.

n gt pushed away by others like wad kat kana now.

so minor ting oso angry n gif attitude.

then those worst 1 u will b explodin n scoldin every1 lah, is it?

im so disappointed in u sia.

i tot u will b diff frm her but in the end u r not.

we said ur attitude is same as kat,

is not dat we r comparin u n her.

is dat u wanna u not to b like her.

u wan to listen or not is up 2 u liao.

if gd words u dun wan listen i cant help u oso.

the most is u r @ ur own lost.

im not sayin dat every1 who gif opinion r rite.

but @ least those we r firm in the place they r doin,

r the rite ppl to listen to.

critics n comments r hushed n cruel.

i noe dat.

u cant accept it in the beginnin,

but those r the stuff dat improve wad u r doin all the time.

seriously, u r juz as spoiled as her more than us.

im spoiled oso.

a super spoiled brat dat is a society useless piece of crap.

so i dun mind if u say im oso a spoiled brat.

cause i noe dat i m n i noe dat i hv alot of attitude prob issues oso.

gt my comp back

2011-04-07T13:45:00.004+08:00

yeah,

gt my comp fixed up n back to mi.

well, in the end.

is actually my BIOS overheated n spoiled. ==

the person say i didnt let my lappy rest,

hence it gt overheated n died.

my bro told mi probably is my UMD affected it.

no idea. the person oso change my fan cause he said dat 1 oso kana.

i dun hv to pay for tis time.

but the nxt time i nid to pay liao.

cause the mechanic is my dad fren de son fix de.

well, i gt it done up now i can gt to do my jap b4 sat comes.

anyway, dad told mi not to play too long for now.

since it juz gt revive.

anyway, i on comp oso nth much to do.

dun wanna play games cause it is really borin n no life.

well, ppl can say u can makes frens n hv a social life.

but it is not dat social cause is cyber.

so is cyber life.

which nowadays many teenagers, especially most of them r guyz, hv no social life @ all.

n is totally true.

to guys, which i hv no idea y, playin comp is part of their life.

like sumhow a drug addicts those kind.

seriously, i gt addicted once n gt banned frm usin comp for 6mth.

so i noe how it feels like when u r addicted n tryin to gt urself cured.

but then, really, most guyz hv no life than gals.

cause well, gals most of the time hang outside shoppin n lookin around stuff,

while most guyz stuck @ home in front of comp n die tere. (Y)

totally hv no social life @ all.

hence, they dunno how to act when sum reallife tings happen in their life dat they nv kana b4.

o ya, my bro said dat he wanna gt a ps3.

which i doubt he gt the money to do dat,

n the place to put dat.

but then if he buys dat.

i gonna buy FF12 n 13 to play le.

i wont b buyin eng version,

will b gettin the jap version.

original is the best. xD

so relax

2011-03-31T23:15:00.002+08:00

so relax out of sudden.

i mean after i keep listenin to FF12 de endin theme by Angela Aki,

it really makes mi feel like relaxin.

hven been hearin her singles/album release,

mayb cause of the quake n other stuff happenin in japan bah.

hmm, feel like really go buy PS3 juz for Final Fantasy sia.

dunno y.

but then i still hope to move house first b4 gettin 1.

which i doubt i will b hvin it nor even movin house.

lolz,

2day im suppose to go out wif charlton n kean for movie n aracade.

but then cause charlton suddenly cant make it,

therefore we change to nxt wk. =(

i wanna watch Hop or another 3D anime show (cant remember the name).

juz receive Aya msg.

well, again, i cant read sum of the vocab word dat she wrote.

gotta check dict n keep them in my note book.

thinkin of the compo makes mi headache.

i cant write abt sumting dat i nv experience b4.

so hard. ><

but i nid hand in on sat.

n i left tml to write.

great. ==

haiz, life sux.

but still hv to go on.

girl is tryin hard recently,

which is a gd sign dat she is tryin to recover.

regardin mi, probably still tryin bah.

anyway, recently i kinda busy,

totally feel nth out of sudden.

is it a gd or bad sign?

mayb it is a gd 1 bah.

focus on sumting else first.

ya, jap term test comin n im yet really learnin anyting.

thx to the huge gap. ==

n i realise, when i speak to myself in jap.

it is not dat fluent anymore.

it is like, u dun hv the push to continue sumting dat ya like abt.

feel like out of sudden my heart really go so cold n hollow.

wad is tis sia?

i myself cant answer either.

mayb, im juz totally too lost in my arrogant world le bah.

my retribution i guess.

juz tired

2011-03-27T22:31:00.002+08:00

aw, im in a pretty bad shape recently.

rite now i gt back my hunger prob again.

well, recently i hven been eatin well.

more like when gt work i onli eat 1 meal.

which is very bad.

rite now im tunnin back my old self.

if not i tink i probably go back to 39kg.

which is really danger zone. =/

damn tired rite now.

mayb is the humit weather bah.

hven been slpin well to b frank.

though i slpt @ 11 or 12.

but then im actually starin @ the ceiling till like 2am then slp.

damn bad le.

i guess i really play too much.

my mind isnt tired @ all.

haiz.

anyway,

nxt wk gonna hand in a compo.

but then, i hven thought of how to write it.

dats y im not workin on fri.

goin out tml. wee....

is AE bondin session,

dats y im goin. <3

hehe

so pissed wif guyz

2011-03-25T23:12:00.003+08:00

well,

im kinda pissed wif a guy called Leroy in my workin place.

y? cause i find him dat he will onli treat a lady nice if the lady is a pretty 1.

which is totally same as my bro.

so not gentlemen.

im so pissed wif them.

so looked down on them sia.

is like,

he ask mi to find the coke light for him.

then i say it is tere.

then he ask mi go take.

then he still ask mi can anot when it is a new carton dat is not opened.

then he still gif mi attitude sayin wad "very heavy meh? wif dat meh face."

zzzz.

like c ppl no up like dat.

anyway,

not plannin to continue when sch starts.

i do part time not really for cash though.

to kill my everyday time.

if not i will bcome a game addict like kean. <3

well, sch holiday is to take a break so ya.

but too long i dun really like it.

makes mi so lazy. =/

later i gain weigh again.

then bcome like kean.

i then dun wan. ==

haiz.

so tired.

im bein like doin quite alot 2day.

broke my record.

i did refillin, garbage clearin, clearin of trash n cleanin the tables, take orders n food wrappin.

if i do drinks top up,

i tink i go die le.

tired like shit. ==

n i gt burned while takin the Gravy.

so clumsy n stupid. ==

Loves hurt

2011-03-24T23:32:00.002+08:00

lolz,

Loves really hurts.

n it hurts a big time if u r not over wif it.

u cant held it back nor u can show it.

anyway,

didnt when to talk to bernice cause i tink i will b readin the same ting again.

hmm,

tired liao.

really wanna rest.

but then it seems like most of her frens like kinda dun wanna listen liao. =/

sumhow,

i told her how i gt over wif the previous it.

but then, it seems like not workin on her. =/

i guess she is still young.

still gt many tings dat she hven explore on.

anyway,

i told her abt mine.

n find dat adult love is so romantic when im not even an adult yet. ==

well, mayb to her i sound mature.

but im not really dat mature @ all.

for those who noe mi, can confirm wif tis statement.

sumhow she oso added mi on fb.

well, then she say im cute which im not.

well, i cant understand y others said dat im gd lookin when im not.

i look pretty awful for sure.

neither im a gd person though alot ppl say dat im a kind-hearted 1.

i kinda disagrees wif dat.

i dun really find dat it is a strength.

more like a weakness.

o well,

i tink i better gt sum slp.

workin tml.

man hv a stupid dream tis afternoon.

i tink i use too much on dewgong d.

find like i kana haunted by it. =/

tinkin too much??

2011-03-24T17:23:00.002+08:00

hmm,

i guess recently i hv been tinkin too much.

well, didnt gt to slp well every nite.

cause i hv been playin Dissidia the whole day long.

which my body wasnt tired but my mind is.

i kinda hv those kind of feelins mayb cause i hv been talkin to bernice lately.

wif her same probs come again n again,

n wif the solutions n opinion i gif her again n again.

well, ya it didnt work cause she is not tryin @ all.

well, u probably can c dat but then all the sentence dat she told mi,

over n over again.

it is like did u really put in ur heart to try?

all u noe is to juz complain n nagged abt it.

im once like tis but then,

i tried n i did it.

so it is like y cant u try it?

it is hard to let go,

i cant doubt abt tis.

but it is easy to move on which depends on u wan or not.

no1 decide ur path,

all we can do is to gif u our opinion dats all.

i noe u like the guy even though u dun even noe him in RL.

cause is a cyber love.

but then the guy nv loves/likes u @ all.

n u r juz forcin sum1 to likes/loves u.

which will end up worsen the situation.

if u really like the person,

then let go.

mayb sumday,

the person might come back to u.

gt my first tips 2day

2011-03-22T23:36:00.003+08:00

yeah,

gt my first tips 2day workin @ Smith Fish & Chips.

so happy.

then i gt to noe aunty helen n uncle dave.

it seems like mon to thurs like not many ppl @ nite.

cause 2day im more carefree.

Tina leavin on thurs,

which means 2day is the last days i c her. =/

lolz,

recently bernice(girl) has been talkin to mi.

then more like i can console her than myself.

tellin her not to force the guy to like her,

but i myself like doin tis oso.

im so bad too.

then she keep wantin to end her life to 4gt it.

which i dun find any point of it. =/

but love really can make sum1 do crazy tings.

haiz.

i can sense dat u r really makin a distance away now.

im not sure if tis is the decision i wanna make,

but then, it really hurts though.

but then, if u oso tink dat it is ok,

then let it b le bah.

u ask mi y i cry on mon nite,

but in the end i told u dat even i said to u oso no diff.

i feel so bad. =/

i wanna tell ya but then it is like a small matters.

mah, nvm.

i nid to b strong

2011-03-21T17:26:00.003+08:00

hmm, sumhow i dunno y im still gt tis nervous + fear inside.

mayb im juz worried i cant go off early.

n oso im workin alone cause im workin on wkdays.

well, i guess it is a gd chance for mi to b independent.

cant always depends on others.

but then, i still gt a part of mi dat is fully filled wif loneliness.

i cant feel it so deeply till i wanna cry. =(

im not askin for sympathy,

is juz dat i wanna let tis out.

i guess i tink is time to let it go.

but then, it is so hard to do dat.

though i did it again n again b4.

but then, it is sooooo damn tirin.

i feel so hollow within mi,

which makes mi feel like cryin.

i tink i really nid to gt out of my house n go out for walk.

but then alone?

frens r always available like after 3pm. =/

every1 is so occupied now.

mi??? im like partially.

is like i totally feel dat i hv lost interest in japanese.

now, i cant speak up like the past.

so confidently dat i hv lost it totally.

haiz, im not sure wad is wrg wif mi.

rite now, i nid to b strong to work independently.

im so depend on others which makes mi nv grow @ all.

im so weak n useless to many ppl.

i rather u tell mi not to b close to u than continue makin mi feel tis way.

workin in the same place as kean n charlton

2011-03-18T23:10:00.002+08:00

lolz, 2day went to work in the place whr kean n charlton r workin.

but 2day i worked wif kean nia.

i went tere n start workin on washin all the stuff tere.

their ketchup cap is like 1000 yrs nv washed like dat.

walau, damn gross pls.

i wash them liao then refilled all the empty n half filled ones.

then i meet ppl like Tina,

who taught mi cashier job 2day.

pretty tough, cause ya nid stand @ dat damn spot for the whole god damn day.
then the funny ting is dat sean asked kean if he gt a gf anot,

cause he said he worked on sat n sun then sean like worried for his relationship if he has.

then i stoned tere for awhile then started laughin.

then i told sean dat he is always like tis. LOLZ

was quite tirin @ the cashier tere,

but i still prefer not to b @ the cashier area.

still like to clean the area. xD

anyway, kean is doin all those. xD

n i left @ 10 cause my house area here not safe,

n wait for the damn bus 40 nid 30mins. WTF

so ya loh.

overall not bad,

but i still gt a very uneasiness in mi.

not sure y,

mayb bcause i still prefer to work in those logistic area bah.

will c how le.

nxt wk im workin on wed @ same time.

onli mi alone so ya loh.

stuck @ chap 3

2011-03-17T23:42:00.003+08:00

ok, im still stuck on chap 3 bcause of Dissidia 012.

was so addicted till everytime it finish chargin,

i will confirm go chiong de.

well, rite now im done wif the new chara.

current gonna set them off to the destroyed place,

for sum of ya who read it.

for those who hven,

go to tis link: http://www.sdl.sg/en/b/80000845.html

if u like the story, juz vote it. =)

i probably will be done tml.

is pretty long tis time cause of the dialog.

so yup.

tis sem de GPA

2011-03-17T16:33:00.002+08:00

WOOHOO...

FINALLY I CAN PROVE DAT IM NOT HARDWORKIN.

WOOHOO...

my gpa for tis sem is 2.45.

compare to last sem, i drop by 1.

so my last sem is 3.45. LOLZ

tis are my grades:

CMSK 2 - B

GMAPS - B+

IGAI - C

AIGD - D

SWEN - C

ONGD - B+

lolz u guyz probably tinks dat im insane like dun care abt grades.

seriously, im no interest wif my grades dat will go dat high.

dun really bother bah.

as long as i gt out of tere.

well, i nv expect to keep achieve 3 n above.

though i wanna go Uni or mayb not.

cause go Uni, i probably doin part-timin which i doubt i wanna do so.

no money = no uni.

so y bother gt dat high.

gt a scholarship??

nah, im not a hardworkin person.

n i hate to b so hardworkin cause i would probably ended up in the mental hospital.

cause i hv anxiety disorder which is quite bad sumtimes.

no wonder recently im not dat worried for grades.

which is the first time i feel dat gd.

mayb is not dat high expect on sumting bah.

feel like the stone within nv exist tis time.

ahhh....

feel so gd.

no stress in it @ all.

i totally feel great.

i dunno y mayb bcause tis time round im more on my own bah.

or mayb not.

anyway,

im tired of continue tis course sumhow.

mayb im not a person who will sit tere n hold on to a book n study for the whole day.

o well, i wish i dun hv to go n study sia.

so bored studyin. =/

juz started Dissidia 012

2011-03-16T20:45:00.003+08:00

ok, i juz started Dissidia 012 tis mornin after i gt my psp updated.

the whole ting is so damn cool.

especially Lightning <3.

well, the diff between the previous 1 is dat,

previously the whole game is more on like main chara fight the main actual enemy.

now is dat the game, inside after addin Lightning(XIII), Vaan(XII), Tifa(VII), Cain(VI), Yuna(X & X-2) n Laguna(VIII),

the whole story is like talkin abt sum sort of traitors within the Cosmo's warriors.

n oso the whole game was not really very chess-like,

since they made the chara animated n tere is like world map whr u walk around n kill monsters.

they oso change the battle system whrby u juz press on the the button once,

it will keep usin the command automatically.

they oso added new battle map n soundtracks.

o ya in the battle, u can oso like hv ur other chara to b ur assist.

wad do i mean by dat?

means dat example u r usin Lightning as the chara to battle the enemy,

then Tifa will be assisting u.

but overall, u r onli able to control Lightning throughout the battle.

they oso set the game whrby u can transfer over ur old Dissidia data to the new 1.

as is like example in the old Dissidia my Cloud lvl is 100,

hence, when i transfer the data over, his lvl is still the same, items n settin is oso the same.

n those u already unlocked will also b transfer over.

cool huh.

well, im still playin the game,

currently @ Lightning chapter which is the 4th chapter.

well, the graphic is super gd whr u gt to c very beautiful Ex-mode n attacks.

i would rate it a 9.5/10 bah.

aw man

2011-03-15T23:03:00.002+08:00

aw man,

i tink i gonna update my psp version tml.

gonna update for Dissidia.

i wanna play cause of Lightning ><.

she is so cool omg.

really the female version of cloud.

really like her alot. (Y)

lolz,

now im hvin mass convo wif the 2 bff.

well, still decidin who is comin on fri to pei mi go work.

it seems like now im forcin them to come like dat.

ok another sin added on.

lolz, im juz used to it le.

hmm,

i tink im tryin to set everyting back as normal.

but i realise i cant.

so hard to set it back as normal since is the onli way.

is kinda silly but then,

it so ..... i dunno how to say.

juz feel weird bah.

feel like cryin cause i cant leave. haiz

wad should i do??

Dissidia 012

2011-03-15T17:48:00.003+08:00

woo hoo,

Dissidia 012 is out,

n tis r all the main cast.

of course zidance is inside ><. <3

but i still wan aeris instead of Tifa. =/

not sure if i gonna gt back the previous dissidia,

but i doubt any1 hv the jap version.

tis time i saw the demo,

u can use up to 3 chara.

omg so cool.

i gonna use Lightnin for use.

mayb Lightnin, Tifa n Zidance/Cloud. <3

aw, saw ML juz now when i was on my way home frm TP.

he looks sad n he said dat he broke up wif his gf. =/

sry bro, but cheer up. =)

but then sum more he is like walkin under the rain oso.

omg, i tink he is really super sad. =/

i wonder sumtimes

2011-03-13T21:31:00.002+08:00

sumtimes i wonder,

my parents nv really understands mi.

ya mayb they do but not totally.

is like,

my mom is a housewife who 24/7 camp @ home.

n then she nv interact wif other ppl n tinks dat their olden way of teachin is always rite.

which i dun agree @ all.

generation changes n tings around changes too.

even we oso hv to come up wif new ways to guide the new generation.

but then many of them uses the wrg way.

anyway,

my mom is like blamin charlton n kean for askin sean to let mi work tere as a 2nd chance.

well, i noe y she doesnt like it.

is like u show a bad impression n suddenly y these 2 frens r like beggin to let mi in.

i dun really like dat too.

but i juz doesnt noe how to turn down.

rite now, is more like if i dun head down n work tere for a few wks or so i dun really feels gd.

ya cause im like tis i gt bullied n cheated easily.

but i really seriously cannot turn down.

n now my mom is like blamin my frens for forcin mi go tere n work wif them.

it makes no sense.

ya i noe we hv to work alone in the future.

but dat will b when we r in our specialise position.

n even so,

my bro keep askin mi u go uni wan study wad?

hv u tink of it yet? n etc

is like, cant i work first b4 i go study again?

i really dun wan to folo ur footstep whr by dependin on other ppl money to study.

is like his way is so alike to my aunt le.

aiya, i dunno how to explain le.

sum ask mi go talk to them, sum ask mi dun care.

even i wan go talk n care, im already very tired le.

all these is like a burden.

is like now im carryin a heavy burden whr no1 r willin to take part of it.

even so, i oso dun wan cause diff ppl gt diff life probs.

i dun wan drag ppl down like how others did.

tired

2011-03-12T23:50:00.002+08:00

omg,

im so tired,

mayb cause of "dat" bah.

wanna slp more.

cried for 3hrs last nite.

cause of dat i cannot slp until 3am tis mornin.

argh.

my life is so weak.

i myself is so weak too.

i really nid to b strong.

but i dunno how.

sian ar,

if tis continues.

i tink i will b cryin all nite for another 4days le. =/

so tirin, the past keep comin.

n i keep nid to stop it comin by lettin out.

worst case, it happens in the midnite. ==

was a rush

2011-03-11T23:00:00.002+08:00

well,

2day went out wif darlin mandy.

didnt really share much cause is like go eat,

then go pei mi go Popular gt the form but the manager not tere.

then go home liao.

actually i would hv stay alittle longer,

but her dad fetch mi home cause im carryin dat box of manga back.

tml she gonna sell stuff @ orchard tere.

hope u guyz can head down n support her. =)

well,

my story gt up on9 d.

gonna do the cover.

LOLZ,

ya i noe i hv been sayin tis but not doin it.

i will do dat tml.

haha.

so tired but so fun in tis few wks.

o ya,

actually juz now @ PP i wanna buy the bear for larry.

but then end up they say nid collect 10 stamps to exchange it.

o man, now i gonna look for others for his bday present.

anyway,

i do dat cause he gt the answer rite. =)

i guess he is another 1 who noes mi well. hehe xD

gt tis feelin

2011-03-10T21:07:00.003+08:00

hmm,

i gt tis feelin dat mandy gonna cant take it liao. =/

i dunno.

but out of sudden she cut away the tentacles.

like so weird.

ya, i noe, i asked her to remove it away b4.

but then...

haiz, relationship can really kill a lady's heart.

tml we gonna share out all for 3hrs.

i dunno how m i gonna share when she almost cant take it le. =/

i so wish dat we dun hv to grow up.

feelins is sumting dat is not easy to control.

n worst if it is in a relationship.

aiya the best lah.

hv it dead so dat we can immune to all tis.

so irritatin.

the worst is when others looked down on u abt tis.

haiz, totally hv nth to say.

recently i keep sayin i wan do tis n dat.

realise onli did 1.

i hven done my white valentine post yet.

great. ==

im so late to the core.

wad m i doin sia? ==

on comp jiu msn, fb, twitter then maple.

feel dat im so damn no life which i m now.

i dun wanna continue tis kinda.

dats y i wanna work.

but then, my condition. ==

im seriously cannot tink abt all tis anymore le.

argh, im seriously not myself now.

i hate tis mi.

fri, cant wait

2011-03-09T22:51:00.004+08:00

omg,

cant wait till fri.

gonna hug darlin n cry @ the same time.

mayb dat the most i wanna do now.

i dunno wad to do,

all i noe is dat im juz tryin to control.

mayb dat is the best. =)

well,

2nd chap is done,

now on the beginnin of the 3rd chap.

not sure y im so motivated to keep writin.

mayb bcause u keep readin.

o well, lets 4gt tis.

went swimmin wif hee an 2day.

ms farida was late by an hr cause of meetin.

so ya.

we swam awhile then go d cause the weather too cold. =/

if it is hot sunny day,

i dun mind to keep swimmin for long. xD

aw,

feel kinda bad dat kean n charl gonna ask the manager for a 2nd chance.

i dun really feel gd abt it.

i dunno wad to do too.

feel heartache abt it. =/

in the end i nv finished

2011-03-08T23:15:00.002+08:00

in the end i didnt finished the story.

rite now i gt a headache cause of the hot weather.

n i hv been tinkin n plottin the story for quite awhile.

i tink i gonna take panadol n go slp soon.

anyway,

i let kean n charlton read my story.

n kean said the same ting as joo did.

which is onli juz gotta emphasize more on the battle scene.

well,

dat time joo told mi n i did.

but i tink it is still not enough.

so i gonna go into it tml.

while charlton say dat tere should b more detail on the part of Light growin up.

which i find it irrelevant to add in.

it is like not necessary i can say.

cause the focus is not abt her growin up,

but is abt her gettin back her continent back and reunion wif her twins.

anyway,

i tot of the cover for the story but then i nid to draw out.

then scan then photoshop it.

gonna take mi awhile.

but i gonna finish the 2nd chapter first.

cause i gt a order frm joo d. ><

o ya, i wanna read his 2nd chapter too. ><

but must wait him finish editin first bah. =)

was chattin wif mandy juz now,

n she ask mi if i gt any luck on BGR.

then i said no cause i didnt tell who is the person.

then i ask her the same ting.

then she say she dun wan. LOLZ.

so i gave her a suggestion n she likes it woot. <3

OMG, i cant wait to meet her. ><

tere is so many tings i wanna tell her but then gonna meet her in person to chat will b better.

i rather not say than sayin it

2011-03-07T21:59:00.002+08:00

recently, i hv been hangin out wif charlton n kean.

ytd when out wif them to comifest,

then they come my house n camp frm 3.30pm to 7pm.

lolz. super long hrs.

sum more still cry in front of them feel weird.

lolz onli charlton ask mi if im ok or not.

thx pal for ur word of care. =)

then 2day we went to kean house.

we went tere n swim.

the diff between the swimmin pool tere n cy de,

is dat kean de is wider n shallower while cy de is deeper n shorter.

we like swim frm 11am till 12.40pm jiu go eat @ the nearby tere.

then we go cy house n play yugioh. LOLZ.

didnt noe dat the old man gt so many yugioh cards.

n comics oso.

i tink he can open a comic shop to rent the comic d. xD

then around 8pm go dinner wif them.

then 8.45 like dat jiu go home d.

charlton walk wif mi all the way to the back of those condo nearby to take bus 2.

but my bus came like 5mins later. LOLZ.

thx for escortin mi all the way to the bus-stop tere. =)

anyway,

i dun tink i gonna say name or wad.

mayb i juz keepin it to myself.

for now, i tink it will b the best for mi bah.

say n not say the answer i already noe.

i gonna b fine or mayb not.

mayb tis gonna takes awhile again.

or mayb i should b noein wad is the best for the 2 of us.

wad should i say today?

2011-03-05T23:27:00.002+08:00

hmm,

it seems like i gonna out of topic to write here soon.

tml i goin to comifest wif kean n charlton.

hoho, my first time outin wif tis 2 boys.

hmm, i tink i gonna b bully by charlton again. ><

but then nid wake up 9am tml.

then 9.30 gonna gif kean a mornin call.

so if he late can kill him. >=D

anyway,

still tryin to finish up my 2nd chapter.

but i kinda lost in the middle.

well, it is like i plot the startin n endin but no middle.

lolz. best of all.

tryin to add in more.

then ask jaiden again. =)

i juz noe too little abt tings

2011-03-05T00:46:00.003+08:00

i juz noe too little abt the tings around me.

sumhow i tot dat i noe all but then i dun.

frens is important but then wad kind of frens to u is consider a gd fren?

to mi, frens dat will b tere when u sad and dun gif up on u till the very last sec,

r the greatest frens that it give to me.

well, mayb they juz cant tolerate the person anymore,

cause these ppl r stubborn juz like mi till they cant listen to every word dat their frens say.

but then,

r u guyz tellin the person when he or she is sad?

ya u might b sayin it but then remember these ppl nid us to b tere wif them more.

though we cant b tere forever,

but we can b tere for a moment of time.

isnt dat enough already?

we hv our own life.

so we can gif all our time to frens.

hmm, im not really dat selfish but then.

i noe dat frens wont b tere all the time.

but then im glad dat i noe them in my life.

even if we noe each other for a short period of time.

it is already way enough for mi.

kinda random suddenly,

cause was chattin wif Bernice(the Girl in maple dat 1),

n we shared alot of stuff.

frm relationship to frenship.

i wanna spend alittle more time wif her.

cause...

she is troubled now.

wanna b tere listenin to wad she wanna say till the very end. =)

gettin more n more no life

2011-03-03T17:38:00.001+08:00

omg,

gettin more n more no life le.

keep maple n play FF everyday.

hven start my jap yet.

omg.

i tink im still enjoyin like siao.

dats y my mom wanna mi go out. ==

well,

im fine recently.

woot.

mayb bcause it is full pure holiday already.

so i wanna enjoy myself.

meetin kean n charlton tis sun.

but then i gonna b goin off early cause gonna order cakes for my mom bday wif my bro.

anyway,

plannin to work part time for fun but kinda bored.

i cant work in F&B thx to my memories.

haiz.

emo shit.

hmm,

i tink i nid to rest well le.

recently slp @ 1am.

i tink i gonna b heaty soon.

im gettin more n more paranoid

2011-02-28T20:23:00.002+08:00

im gettin more n more paranoid recently,

seriously im creatin trouble again.

mayb i bcomin like sum1 n the others r gonna b like how they treat the person.

which means i gonna b treated the same way.

since our classmates r the ppl who gif up on others so easily n lightly,

then i totally wont expect for the opposite.

mayb im juz bored cause i cant stand a world wif no voices n sounds.

whr it is juz a complete darkness.

o well, i tink im juz paranoid.

argh. totally cant b saved d.

n i dun tink any1 will save mi.

first they hv no patience,

second they cant get mi move away frm it.

wad else can they do.

humans r weaklings,

n they will onli save themselves when the danger time comes.

n it will b the time whr humans betray each other.

tis cycle will not end till a pure one came n break the cycle.

which i hv really seen 1 yet.

bcause even the pure oso gt corrupted n contaminated.

im not pure to b honest.

bcause i hv been contaminated badly.

even the way i talk now keep provoke ppl.

who will b willin to talk to mi sia.

even hv is those who cotaminated me.

who else will do dat.

for now,

i dun belong to anywhr.

when i die,

i hope no1 will come to my funeral.

whr no1 will noe mi.

i will onli b other's memory for a moment of time.

slowly they will 4gt mi, like how i do to others.

so, might as well, dun come n juz leave mi alone.

i tink dat will b the best will i hv set.

even if u r close to mi or not,

it doesnt matters.

juz 4gt mi when i leave tis world.

hven been bloggin for weeks

2011-02-27T23:19:00.002+08:00

hmm,

hven been bloggin for wks.

not sure wad to write.

all i noe is dat exam is over, assignments all handed in.

now is holiday.

well, bcause of holiday,

hee an asked mi to join her n her family for a vacation.

but the prob is my passport expired n i hv yet made 1.

well, her voice sounds so sad n i dunno wad to do. =/

sry gal. =(

o ya juz saw yan chee fb juz now.

i tink she is pregnant already.

cause of all the baby shoes n clothin.

n she is 19 same age as mi,

n she married to a guy who is 11yrs older than her.

n now she is pregnant.

wow, dats cool. early mom.

i wanna hv dat kind of life too.

but 19 yrs old gt pregnant is way too early for mi.

o ya,

sumhow ytd joo came to talk to mi.

on msn of course. ==

n sumhow his words touches my heart.

thx joo. =)

well, i didnt expect my classmates they all will speak so maturely.

dun gt offended.

bcause everytime i c them in sch @ the concourse lvl playin games.

n yet they can speak so mature.

suddenly, my cliques r gettin closer bonds wif nicks cliques.

well, for joo cliques im quite close to joo since i hv been talkin to him more often lately.

im not sure if their cliques hv settle their tings up or not.

but all i noe is dat they still gt work tgt.

which is a gd ting.

o ya, term ends d.

is a thankin msg to the ppl i wanna thank.

first n honorable person, Larry the duck. LOLZ

well, bcause of tis brother of mine, i made it in tis course until now.

well, mayb we r closed till we dun even noe we noe each other quite well.

is like we hv been carryin each other burdens on tis path n pushin each other.

n bcause of him, i clear tis sem.

thx bro.

then i wanna thx ppl who r around mi,

those who gave mi support.

like sher mama, kean, joo n etc (too many to name ==).

well, hv been quite close to them lately.

which is a gd ting.

i gt to know alittle more of my these frens here.

sumtimes i realise i hv nv been protectin others,

but others r protectin mi.

i feel so bad abt it cause i feel so useless.

is not dat i hven been doin anyting,

is more like im too weak to do anyting.

i juz cant stop blamin myself bcause is not rite.

anyway, i kinda agree wif wad sho said sumtimes.

he said dat "we cant tell the person whom we like, bcause we might lose tis person 4eva.".

well, is true.

bcause of human natural.

most of them juz start to walk away frm u.

i rather not to tell than lost a great fren. =/

seriously.

is not dat we wan to,

is dat we dun hv a choice come on.

times-to-times we gt hurt so badly,

dat we dun even wanna tell any1.

times-to-times dat ppl ignore us,

we juz hv to talk to the wall or to our soft toy.

we those paranoid ppl who no1 wans to talk to for a longer time.

seriously, which idiot would wanna talk to u?

o well, stop all tis random tings already.

well, i juz finished a lyrics,

but on my way to finish up the previous lyrics that im not done wif.

erm, if ya wanna read, leave mi a msg on msn or here is ok.

emo shit

2011-02-23T20:37:00.002+08:00

haiz emo shit.

AIGD i tink i failed le.

confirm.

didnt do anyting @ all.

now i bcome like ML.

u guyz probably say i deserve it.

which is true.

i really deserve it. ==

ya, say wadever u guyz wan bah.

tml, cheasen n cheaying gonna gt married le.

in RL.

the best part.

is in msia. ==

i missed it.

FML.

so close to holidays n i missed dat. ==

argh.

i tink i gonna go insane soon le.

seriously,

recently i found myself so annoyin cause of AIGD.

ya, dat again.

i tink i hv annoyed many ppl till they wan to run away frm mi le.

im so weak till i cant even stand up.

sum says dat i nid a greater push,

but i doubt so.

i juz nid a greater force to hit my head n i go coma.

dat 1 even better.

i feel dat i hv dragged larry down cause of tis module.

seriously, i did.

im so much emo.

till i tink every1 left my side.

isnt it a gd tings?

i tink i should b left alone for gd.

prevent harm to others.

a chat wif kean

2011-02-20T22:34:00.002+08:00

was chattin wif kean juz now.

didnt realise dat kean talk like so mature.

LOLZ.

was surprise by dat sia.

hmm,

nv judge a book by its cover.

sumhow i hv 4gtten abt it.

i tink the old self mi is comin back.

im not sure if i hv change or will i wan to change.

all i noe is dat everyting around mi wont change.

life still as normal.

juz dat we change for the better or worst.

i wanna b slp for eternity for gd.

though memories will retain.

but future changes.

felt so empty

2011-02-19T23:38:00.002+08:00

felt so empty out of the sudden.

i tink i hv been tinkin too much lately.

hmm,

or mayb im alittle work stress???

i tink so.

after everyting i tink i gonna hv a gd rest.

wad a day

2011-02-18T23:30:00.002+08:00

yo ppl,

hven been bloggin for like a few days or a wk.

anyway,

went to cy house 2day to swim wif nicky, sher, kean, jon, cy, nicky n cy de fren n zy.

had alot of fun tere.

n the guyz r like our entertainer.

was so fun.

but it rain 3times n every1 was under the shelter tere shiverin.

but sumhow,

the rain i looked @ 2day doesnt makes mi sad.

i tink all my thoughts r sort out well le.

lookin @ the rain makes mi feel lighter in my mind n heart.

like a stone juz left wif no worries.

i juz realise dat samuel was in the gambit interview.

wow, gratz bro.

didnt noe he gt chosen.

but i tink is bcause he is one of the top student.

n lookin at his result was like wow.

was happy for him sumhow. =)

o ya recently,

i was so addicted back to horoscope or zodiac (wadever u call it),

but my readin for it still not dat much accurate n tere is many more to discover.

i wanna learn more on tis n as well as tarot cards.

i tink i felt alittle paranoid recently.

abt myself changin.

im not sure if i hv changed.

but i hope i can change for gd.

but then it seems like i bcome worse.

not sure wad i should do or mayb i should rest for awhile?

wanna look for a job but then lookin @ the piles of unstudied jap stuff.

makes mi panic more. =/

i might not b leavin tis country if possible.

but i wanna travel to other countries.

if possible i juz wanna travel around japan.

wanna noe abt the past history.

erm,

i told many of my frens dat im not gonna study after poly.

gonna take a short break like 1yr.

the reason is bcause i hv been hard-core studyin for like going to 14yrs of my life. ==

i really nid a short break to take a deep breathe.

well, my parents r ok wif it as long as im happy. =)

it is like for the first time my dad said dat to mi.

mayb he juz feel dat i can b better in my life dat i choose.

n hope to c mi happy for wadever path i choose in my life.

i feel dat im alittle close to my dad which is gd.

i dun really dislike my dad juz dat he is sumtime really too dumb which i hv no idea y. ==

too pure le bah.

im not try to show-off but i juz wanna share it here.

i tink my life is bloomin now.

cause i hv a great parents.

though i realise abit late (@ least better than my bro who hven even realise yet),

i feel so warm under them.

im not sure if im mature or not.

but it doesnt matters anymore.

bcause human can b mature n immature sumtimes.

but then in life,

u hv to noe wad to do is rite or wrg.

dun nid a reason to help sum1 or even trust sum1.

class outing

2011-02-11T21:58:00.002+08:00

ytd was so fun.

had dinner wif my classmate n i first time played wif sher de doggy, prince. xD

first time played wif a dog after the bad incident.

n it is so fun.

now i missed him. =/

well, we went to sher house @ first.

then we actually was playin poker but in the end,

sum when to play ps3 while mi n kean was playin wif Prince. xD

n this cute little fella is so hyper. ><

n he kissed mi too. LOLZ

Prince look so much like Inuyasha from a close look. ><

then we went out to hv dinner @ 1 shop.

we sit around like those who eat spicy one side,

non-spicy one side.

i cant cooked of course.

dats y sum small part is black.

but overall ok. xD

2day was ok ok.

played the game dat larry pass mi.

not dat addicted but still ok.

it is fun n i like the story. =)

juz finished my first chapter after such a looooooooonnnnnnnnnnngggggggggg break.

gonna wait for larry or jaiden to on9 for either one of them to do spellin check.

then can let u guyz read.

but pls tell mi cause i hven decide on the title so i cant make a blog space for it. =/

sry for the trouble.

hope the dewgong wont know it.

if not she is gonna be so fkin annoyin n keep criticize on how bad my language was. ==

New drama

2011-02-09T08:45:00.004+08:00

was watching new drama ytd whereby Kitagawa Keiko is actin inside tere.

she is the one who acted Sailor Mars in the Sailormoon Live Action. xD

anyway dat show is damn nice.

cause she is actin as a person who can read the movement done by the criminal.

and these criminal gt mental problem as in psychologically like dat.

i watch the first episode i cry sia.

cause Daigo act in the first epi as a criminal who was once abuse,

n tryin to save the kids which their parents abuse them.

hence he killed the parents n bring the children to his house dat gif them warmth.

then 2nd epi is abt the sisterly love which is quite sad.

3rd is abt the pure love. <3

gonna watch 4th n 5th 2nite. xD

i juz done the IMI blog gonna ask larry to correct later.

hoho, finally i done dat 1.

nxt i gonna continue the story dat i hv yet finish.

the first chapter not even done sia.

sian half.

im so tired now.

slp so early but didnt slp well.

aw i really cant slp wif aircon on sia.

haiz haiz haiz.

seriously, i feel dat i hv been sighin alot recently. =/

which is quite bad.

and im hungry rite now b4 AIGD even start.

i wish the cliques r here again. =/

so fun 2day

2011-02-07T22:27:00.002+08:00

2day first day back to sch so sian.

first ting remember is test.

the best part is we r not studyin.

no1 can gt anyting into their head.

i tink i gonna failed too.

o well, is common for mi nowadays.

not sure wad m i tinkin.

but im juz too confuse wif my world now.

everyting is up-side-down n in a mess.

i wonder how m i suppose to clear them now. ==

well,

durin the 'study period',

my cliques were like chit chattin all the way.

crappin n jokin n sharin tings out.

i nv felt dat happy in my life b4.

n it feels gd.

juz dat i didnt study nia. haha

o well, overall i had a great time.

i tink i can slp well 2nite.

hmm,

seriously,

recently i felt sumting weird.

mayb my sensor is abit spoiled.

but sumhow i felt sumting not rite.

juz like those insecure feelin.

like u r been stared @.

hmm, i tink it is juz my imgination but sumhow,

i gt tis feelin throughout the entire 4hrs of CMSK tis mornin.

feel so so so weird abt it.

aw, i tink i nid build barrier around to keep myself safe. xD

is not those kind of anti-social barrier.

it is those of anti-damage barrier. xD

ok, too much games le i tink. ==

anyway,

hven start touchin up my first chapter.

tryin to tink of the new plot after the part whr Light gt her new guardian.

opps, abit spoiler.

prompt mi in msn if u wanna read for those who hven read the prelude yet. xD

dad n bro gonna go genting again tml.

which is left mi n mom @ home.

means slpin @ 9pm.

woohoo. FULL ENERGIZE!!!

erm, im not guai kid who will slp dat early,

juz dat tere is nth much i can do.

dun wanna use comp too much cause my eye-sight is gettin worst.

erm, sumhow i wanna say,

juz believe in anyting dat ya wanna do.

n i tink dat u will do it.

if u wanna go,

then juz go.

folo wad ur heart tells ya.

but im happy dat u open up to us. =)

Release of THSK new singles Dance version MV

2011-02-07T18:22:00.004+08:00

cool,

now THSK de new singles de dance MV out liao.

i still prefer the B version de.

probably it looks more nice bah. xD

still like U-Know's dance more.

hehe.

Dance Version A

Dance Version B

O-O

2011-02-05T18:23:00.002+08:00

first ting first.

i wanna gratz sophia cause her niece juz borned ytd.

おめでとう。xD

o recently didnt blog cause im maplin n keep goin down to my grandma house.

so ya.

go tere oso sian.

so noisy.

they 1 day dun fight/quarrel like will die like dat.

o well.

o haha,

i hven been writin my story either.

well,

sumhow gt attracted to maple so much till i 4gt abt it.

gonna write them when im lvl 70 in maple.

hehe...

it is abit like final fantasy.

i noe it is abit fake but all stories come wif copy n paste oso.

so ya.

haiz,

sch startin on mon.

n mon gt class test.

FML.

so we in the end gonna stay till 6 again.

bless us.

recently i kinda worried abt sher's health cause she said dat her liver is killin her.

super worried for her.

1st is her heart.

now is her liver.

omg, i wish she could love herself more. =/

im not sayin dat she is not,

but then i hope she can stop drinkin n smokin.

cause i tink she is still runnin away.

hope dat she is fine. =/

CNY reunion dinner

2011-02-01T23:27:00.002+08:00

argh,

every yr reunion dinner is so irritatin n sian.

everytime go tere is hear them shout, quarrel n argue.

durin the actual day oso like tis.

argh.

i dunno is CNY or wad sia.

so fkin irritated.

the CNY mood directly gone sia.

anyway,

i juz done wif a new lyrics.

those i invited can go in n read.

those who wan read,

pls msn mi or leave ur name @ the tag box tq.

lolz tis afternoon tryin to console one of my fren.

she kinda down wif relationship as well.

is seems like more n more ppl r in tis situation liao.

well, is not easy to let it go.

neither it is easy to start it again.

n it is also depends on the person.

well, didnt really gt her cheer up.

but @ least can gt her mind off.

i tink she is tryin to numb herself in maple.

it sounds like sum1 but then i feel dat,

even u do dat,

the scar will still b tere.

cause u r juz runnin away.

well, mayb im not dat experience.

but i noe how hurtful it is.

wan to erase everyting is hard.

cause sumtime when u c the person,

everyting juz come back again.

so y not face it.

it is better that it hurts more than b4.

even u act it will go even worst.

so juz stand up again n face it.

dun hv to b afraid.

put the past aside n start afresh again. =)

sudden sailor moon

2011-01-31T22:29:00.002+08:00

out of sudden i c so many of my frens de DP is sailormoon pic.

haha.

i tink alot ppl go crazy back of sailormoon.

anyway,

recently abit busy and vexed.

CNY is the year dat makes mi lose myself de.

cause CNY is the most suay ting for every yr.

after my paternal grandma passed away,

none of my life is a peaceful one.

my family nv lead a better life.

cause of the time n date dat my grandma passed away.

it is calculated so dun ask mi if true or not.

bcause it is true.

c my life now.

then every yr nid go down. ==

it should we b helpin cause those unmarried ppl should b doin.

y r we doin?

they gt more ppl y is we doin?

heng my mom n mi always do anyhow until they dun wan us do.

(Y).

sum more my bro is bcomin more like them le.

sumday he will bcome their child instead.

nvm, tis mei chu xi de child in the family onli will drag us down.

sum more he is so petty.

gif my $100 to buy CNY stuff oso wan the left over money to return to him.

my mom dun even wan to take money frm him is my dad wan.

then dat time he say wad nxt time dun gif mi money for my concession.

then i say dun gif loh.

then he say i very hao lian.

pls lah, if u wan to gif u juz gif lah.

i hate ppl not da fang n not sincere @ all.

these r the ppl i will always look down on them.

till the day they should mi dat they can b like tis then i will look up on them.

seriously, i dun nid to depend on my bro money to survive.

is juz dat cause now income low so the family depend abit on him.

i gt do savin so it is ok.

sumtime my mom no money buy food for us i juz ask her go take frm my piggy bank can le.

nv return i wont mind.

cause is @ first i gt my allowance frm my dad then i will save abit.

so even if my mom use oso no worries.

but then if i work n gt salaries,

i sure gif de.

but most of the time my mom rejects.

cause dat time part time i earn i keep abit then gif sum to my mom n dad.

i tink they now nid more than i nid.

now i onli nid to study nia.

expenses all paid by them.

so ya loh.

neither i like to take money frm them.

but @ the moment cause im studyin dats y i gt no choice.

sian juz now i gt all the ideas to write a new song.

now i dun remember anyting @ all.

best man.

i nid dat sorrowness feelin back again.

the feelin of agony n hatred.

i tink i gt inspired by DBSK new singles. LOLZ.

u r not interested but actually u r

2011-01-28T09:58:00.002+08:00

u say dat u r not interested in rumors,

but in the end u r.

seriously,

u r always not truthful to urself.

anyway,

u heard dat ML say then u come n ask mi?

it is like joo ask ML then ML ask u then u come n ask mi.

tere is no diff in it.

seriously,

im already irritated by kat now is u.

FML man. really. FML

i dun care if u read my blog or not.

if u wan u read,

if u dun wan u dun read.

is not my prob.

i juz post everyting dat im not happy or happy wif.

rite now im already pissed off wif sum1 already.

juz dun gt into my way now.

juz a rumor

2011-01-26T23:20:00.002+08:00

hmm,

seriously i still dun tink dat it is really "accidentally " told u abt it.

is more like if u wan to noe then i juz say loh.

but sumting dat im not happy abt is dat.

joo ask ML abt it then ML ask u abt it then u come n ask mi.

n yet u still say dat u read frm my blog??

wad kind of small lie is tis??

n the worse is y joo dun wanna ask mi personally? ==

ok im the little badass devil in class.

finally can show my true self le.

tis is the exact mi.

seriously, dun tink too highly on mi or even depend on mi.

im not a dependable person.

im more like the satan's disciple.

really dun ever tink too highly abt mi sayin how gd i m.

pls say the bad tings.

ya to ppl they can say tis big but cant take it.

i can cause im used to it.

it is much better than sum1 who keep sayin herself as "genius" and callin others "idiots",

which in the end turns out the other way round.

still show mi attitude in gmaps say wad ask mi go figure out myself.

if not cause larry gif her the codes,

i would oso tell her go figure out herself.

since she is keep tink dat she is so pro. ==

every1 gt limit in patience.

dun take those patience lightly,

sumtimes it will blow up.

n if u continue b an asshole,

then u will face more ignores frm us.

im not smart n i dun like to call myself smart or hear tis word frm others.

im not means im not.

if im i should b able to do the assignment dat is given by the lecturers.

is not i dun use brain.

is i really dunno.

im not a logical person in computerise form.

i cant understands computer language.

dats y i should hv gone eng.

i nv wish to b rich,

but juz wan to hv a normal life.

i dun mind to stay poor in the future.

as long as i m poor but i hv pride in it.

i tink im goin crazy soon

2011-01-24T22:30:00.002+08:00

i tink im goin crazy soon.

recently not sure y.

im kinda like gettin more down.

worse case.

i tink is after last wed de swimmin it goes worse bah.

seriously,

when i say im ok n over wif it,

can u guyz dun keep ask "are you sure?? you doesnt sound like u r." ??

it is so fkin irritatin.

n u r tellin mi dat u dun trust mi.

so r u expectin a answer of "yes i hv gt over wif it. im still ...." is it??

argh.

juz cant understand y ms farida likes to say tis.

it makes mi feel so worst n i was like wth.

is more like u r gifin an impression dat u r expectin a yes answer of the question dat u asked.

worse case.

i remember once dat larry reminds mi abt wad ms farida says abt the gay tingy.

she said it until like all gays went over the place slpin wif ppl.

i was like wtf.

normal ppl oso the same leh.

y must directly aim @ the gays??

seriously i dun understand.

u say u dun judge ppl.

but yet u judge.

how contradictin is tis sia.

argh.

i cant understand sia.

tis ting is makin mi sick n i tink tis kind of ting is gettin more n more unreliable.

i dun even feel like goin now.

== FML

2011-01-22T22:04:00.002+08:00

nice,

thx to mr ML,

i kana questioned by sophia.

thx ar. ==

it is so damn scary everytime i kana question by her.

gt black aura de.

anyway,

ytd nite kana fever then now gt flu.

so nid to slp early n wake up tml to prepare my interview on mon.

let mi say sumting here.

our class gt 2 rumors.

those noe liao pls shut up.

im so not gonna explain the last 1 le.

anyway,

the last 1 is so obvious which i tink the whole class noes le. ==

so pls dun gt mi into trouble.

it may not started by mi,

but i wanna keep it as low profile as possible.

so ya.

n kean, sry to drag u down cause i hv to state it.

sry pal. ><

thx to my classmates ==

2011-01-21T10:50:00.002+08:00

lolz, thx to my classmates,

now every1 call mi chibi liao. ==

everytime i go into maple then every1 called mi chibi.

wth sia.

thx to mr zy who started it. lolz

anyway,

ytd we start gmaps but hven did any fireworks out yet.

onli manage to gt a dot i can say.

sher was so pissed off by kat cause kat is so into herself instead of helpin others.

lolz. anyway,

kat nv help ppl de.

come on those who noes will b like durin my IGAI dat time.

she didnt help @ all.

since when she will help.

she will onli help..... *AHEM*

anyway,

recently my fren told mi dat his fren juz passed away.

sry abt dat. =/

but is kinda reminds mi of my 3 frens who passed away.

it hurts of course.

worst case is dat for ppl who r close to their frens,

it is hard to gt over the feelins.

im like tis b4 so i noe how it is like.

so fast, sem 2.2 gonna end soon.

i tink i make everyting worse i can say.

dat wad i wanted i tink.

well, i dunno if im really seekin attention or wad.

but sumhow out of sudden i feel so empty deep down.

so cold n im like floatin in the cold mist like dat.

times to times i say i wanna b alone,

times to times i say i dun wan to b alone.

i dunno wad i wan.

all i noe dat im gettin more n more selfish.

mayb dat changes mi i can say.

but still i wanna b myself back again.

AIGD bcomes Maplin

2011-01-18T20:20:00.002+08:00

LOLZ,

2day the whole day we like maplin in AIGD lab.

well, cause codebase not fully done in the mornin,

so we did maplin.

now larry is in out maplin team le.

hoho.

well, cause of maplin,

now im so worried for my gmaps.

ya of course.

i dun even how wad to write or even how to start doin.

best man.

im so dead lah.

nxt wk either we hand in in tues evenin or wed de mornin b4 9am.

fk sia.

how man. im so doom. ><

o ya, now our class gt more n more rumors le.

gt work rivals sumhow.

n we added 1 more into it so bcome work + love rivals.

lolz. is our classmates lah so ya loh.

then gt another event oso.

lolz.

wanna noe more juz come n find mi.

WAKAKA.

but is juz rumors not true. =)

omg,

nxt wk gt so many tings poppin out.

gt AIGD class test(TBC), gmaps assignment hand in n jap hw + self study. ><

OMG.

i feel like cryin now.

addicted to maple again

2011-01-16T22:21:00.003+08:00

lolz,

im so addicted to maple dat i 4gt abt homework n my japanese.

how awesome can dat b sia.

ytd self-intro was ok.

but when i say abt my dream,

every1 was like 'woo'.

lolz,

it is nth much seriously.

ytd in maple was chit-chattin wif kean abt the happenings in our class.

gt more info frm now.

but im sidin neither.

i wanna to side both if i gt a choice.

but i rather side no1.

juz help when one side needs mi.

lolz, but i dun tink so bah.

o ya,

now almost the entire class playin maple liao.

now charlton n ML join in le.

sher n nick like fightin the place to b jon's junior. LOLZ

LOLZ.

i juz realise i 4gt to put sum stuff into my resume.

not sure if i nid it or not.

but i doubt so.

hmm.

o well,

back to maple now. xD

seriously, i cant understand y more n more ppl r gettin so cold.

sumtimes i feel dat it is their fault n they nv even said a ting.

u guyz juz tink too much le.

i dunno how to help nor wad to do.

all i noe is dat im tryin to get u guyz back on track.

but i can onli c dat u guyz r tinkin too much abt wad is gonna happen later.

y not juz look @ wad u hv now n not tink abt the later part then?

SWEN invaded to maple?!?!?!

2011-01-12T23:33:00.002+08:00

hey hey,

guess wad,

SWEN now hv invaded to maple le.

well, is not really software eng.

anyway,

is an event whr u nid to complete 1 compass in order to go to the treasure island.

cool huh.

n the best is u gt bonus exp when u r @ the map tere.

i kinda twist around wif the word then i found dat dat NEWS is part of it.

JE fan <3

hehe.

i wanna gt the maple leaf ring.

especially the int de.

but in the end i kept gettin str n dex.

sux to the core man.

hehe is kino again.

so addicted to the mushroom.

it is too cute le. ><

anyway, update abt sch stuff.

well, we hven been into AIGD yet.

it has been 2wks already i can say.

i tink nxt wk we gonna hv HELL lots of AIGD.

tml after presentation we can go home early le.

yeah. no nid stay until 4pm.

i tink reach home i gonna finish up the cover letter.

Nicole juz gif mi a 3D animation de.

so happy abt it.

thx gal. xD

o ya n thx larry helpin mi find the job.

which is better than sum1.

anyway,

tml i tink if i gt the time i gonan write my story le.

finally gt the mappin out.

cause it is like Final Fantasy version.

but it is kinda suxy when tere is no images.

well, @ least it is script.

so u kinda can imagine wad will happen.

i hven come out wif the name yet.

neither i noe whr i can post the story @.

but im wellin to share around the story when i can come out wif the name n make a blog for it.

then i will lock it n let my fren read up.

cause of copyrite issues i can say.

anyway,

im signnin off now.

gonna slp.

i chiong for the whole nite to lvl my cleric.

anyway she lvled @ 9.30 juz now.

but was slackin around LOLZ.

so down

2011-01-11T00:23:00.002+08:00

i feel so down 2day.

well, i cant say it is the rain fault.

mayb im so vexed abt the job findin stuff.

juz cant find any job related to IT that i can do.

how pathetic can dat b sia.

well, i cant depend on frens cause they r not dependent lah.

well, u should noe who u r when u like offerin ur help but in the end u didnt help.

ya, i wanna gt mayb the same application as my other fren but im not sure if it is applicable.

o man i feel so lost.

since after the CMSK i already feel like cryin sumhow.

but i tink if i cry nth will help.

so 4gt it.

i feel dat i hv annoyed alot of ppl.

especially my cliques.

frm their expression i can c le.

they juz dun wanna voice us.

n i dun really like it cause no matter how many times i said is still the same.

n recently i bcome more n more vulgar.

haiz.

damn i tink i gonna failed my jap nxt yr le.

cause rite now,

i cant remember anyting dat was taught.

im not sure wad is wrg wif mi.

sumhow the interest in the subject is no longer tere.

mayb i should let go awhile.

but then i kinda like keep forcin myself gettin back tis subjects.

now im typin tis part im cryin le.

bcause it hurts.

losin sumting dat is so important to u that is no longer tere.

it is like tis is sumting dat u can b gd n strong @.

but now it bcome a dust dat mean nth to mi.

i dunno wad is goin on n im so scare to c it.

forcin myself to get interest in it doesnt work.

it gt worsen anyway.

rite now i feel dat i hv already lost myself.

who i m again i cant remember.

all i noe dat im a person wif 2 personality attitude n 2 souls.

mayb it is my horoscope bah since im half a Scorpio, half a Sagittarius.

im not sure abt virgo-libra ppl.

but i noe mine hv 2 personalities dats y i cant decide well.

feel dat now im so lost till i dunno wad is goin on le.

i wanna talk it out but no frens r willin to listen.

when i say, i dun tink they r listenin juz like talkin to walls like dat.

so sad.

lonely?? mayb i like it sumtimes but not everytimes.

maplin

2011-01-09T22:14:00.003+08:00

lolz,

recently keep chiongin maple.

especially sher.

she damn hardcore liao.

now no nid chiong her audi le.

LOLZ.

her chara keep lvl until very fast.

i tink will hit lvl 70 soon.

she now even buy acash items liao.

zai sia.

LOLZ.

anyway i oso addicted le.

LOLZ, cause they chiong so i oso chiong. LOLZ.

tis wk dun hv AIGD @ all.

but nxt wk i gonna hv HELL lots of AIGD.

i tink we gonna meet HELL nxt wk.

y??

cause wk 3 tere is alot of tings to hand in.

then i tink wk 5 nid hand in gmaps le.

gd luk to myself.

y?? cause i hven start.

i dun even noe how to fill in the blanks.

gd luk sia.

rain rain

2011-01-06T00:01:00.003+08:00

well, today it rain suddenly.

so i didnt swim @ all.

so mi n ms farida was like go tere,

sit awhile jiu go bathe le.

ya loh.

then went home rest awhile on comp.

first ting is go in maple add sher. LOLZ

she first 1 on9 sia.

i nv c jon n nick.

onli sher n jacky.

then they lvl 21++ we go pq le.

i go tere up 1 lvl nia.

but not bad.

the pq like bugged le.

not very fun le.

n not easy to lvl oso.

so borin.

but b4 dat, mi n sher was like chit-chattin n bitchin abt others in kernin.

lolz. so fun lah,

then she like cannot take it wanna buy 200m de mesos for like $16 i tink.

n she like wanna go change hair style le.

LOLZ.

o ya tml class starts @ 1pm.

nice.

i tink when i wake up,

hope i can push myself go do the god damn cover letter.

if i finish my cover letter,

i can do resume le.

i tink tis 2 is easy to do.

juz dat u hv to find the actual stuff dat u gonna do,

n push urself go write then jiu ok le.

i c the whole ting is ok leh.

i dunno y everytime i c homework like so hard.

mayb im not a person who very enthu in studyin.

my jap oso startin to cmi le.

seriously,

i tink mayb dat time i push myself too much.

kinda like lost interest in it le.

mayb i should take tings step by step.

i gonna tell myself tis again.

i learn jap not bcause i depend tis language to survive.

i learn is bcause im so in love wif it dat i cant stop myself pursuing it even further.

i learn cause i wanna b a freelance or a pro lyrics writter.

i learn cause im juz interested in it.

lolz so many.

now it bcomes like an excuses. ==

well, tis term gonna b HELL for every1.

especially my clique.

glad dat im teamin wif larry.

well, i juz let him do wad he wans then we decide how to do loh.

but in the meantime i will try to force myself learn first since he is a last-min person.

i dun tink he will b like go learn it first b4 unless he already knew how to do it.

so ya, i tink it will b better not to force sum1.

the sotong mi

2011-01-03T22:17:00.002+08:00

recently i tink i over sotong le lah.

2day like alot of tings go spinnin sia.

1. gif wif info abt class

2. say wrg tings

3. make ppl angry when u already noe they r tired.

4. send wrg documents. ==

zzz.

i totally hv no idea wad is goin on wif me sia.

omg.

feel like slappin myself come on.

i tink im tired too.

hmm, mayb i should slp early 2day.

haiz now everyday 9am.

gt gd n bad lah.

but when assignment comes is like no gd le.

anyway,

the assignment kinda break into part.

which i hv no idea if it is a gd idea or not.

another brand new year

2011-01-02T22:03:00.002+08:00

another brand new year.

it is 2011 already.

time really flies.

hmm, so fast 2011 i gonna b 20 le.

lolz. im really agin now sia.

but then im hvin fun while agin xD.

sch start tml n im still hven slp yet.

aw, it is like i dun even feel like slpin @ all.

tere is an assignment due on 26th Jan,

which i doubt any1 noes dat they already release the codebase long b4 any1 knew it.

anyway,

i kinda dun hv any ting to write abt in the lyrics.

but then i tink i kinda go wild till i wrote a script-like story.

well, i tot of do a storyboardin but im not gd in character design.

o im juz done wif 2 weapons but it looks stupid i can say.

cause it looks flat since i still cant do shadin which is ultimate hard for mi,

since im not even a design or artistic student.

erm, i let jaiden did language editin n he read the prelude part.

he said it is kinda interestin.

lolz, thx.

imagine i did it wif drawin.

i tink it would b a wow. xD

hmm, i tink tere is nth much i cant write here.

i shall c wad is interestin tml. xD

now i kinda worried for Joo. =/

hope he is alrite. =/

outin wif sophia

2010-12-31T19:27:00.002+08:00

2day went to hv lunch wif wai yik @ eunos,

i reach tere super early,

like the usual mi like dat.

then around 1.30pm i left n go Queenstown to meet sophia.

so ya i didnt left house 1hr later but left the lunch time place 1hr early.

then i 2.30 like dat jiu reach Queenstown MRT le.

then like @ 2.08 i gt msg frm sophia say she will b late cause she still watchin drama.

then when she gonna leave house then she will tell mi but i already on the way to reach tere liao.

so in the end i meet her like 3.30pm like dat loh.

waited for 30mins @@.

n play for 30mins. LOLZ

then we take bus go tere.

n again we nv even talk in the bus.

feel kinda awkward sumhow. =/

mayb im sum1 who likes to talk alot bah. ==

o well, but overall is fun. xD

then we reach the shoppin center,

she bought 1 shoe liao then we left n go bugis le.

i cant find the watch dat i wan.

the watch is like u can button de.

i saw 1 shop sellin but then those they hv too gothic le.

dun really like.

dat time in the bus i saw 1 handsome gal gt 1.

i wonder whr she bought it though o well.

after dat mi n sophia walk all the way to golden mile complex tere meet her mom, sis n her little bro.

her mom is super pretty n young lah.

serious.

n her sis is quite tall.

or i should say im too short. ==

but i gonna say tis again.

HER MOM IS REALLY SUPER PRETTY OMG. xD

tml n the day after i gonna rest @ home.

omg, after all the walkin my legs like suddenly cant take it.

hmm, mayb i long nv walk le so kinda tired i can say.

wed i gonna swim again.

woooohoooooo.

lolz i sounds like Selphie in FF8. xD

bbq n movie

2010-12-30T21:31:00.002+08:00

ytd went for Pri 6/10 class bbq.

it was super fun.

i reach tere like 5pm go buy the stuff wif kelly, shawn, chee jie, gui yong n mandy.

then we brin food over n start the fire.

but then we start the fire for like 1hrs lolz.

then after dat yee leng n shu fang came so they help out too.

but around 8pm++ alot ppl come liao.

saw kelvin n yuting.

when yuting came, she keep ji siao gui yong.

damn funny.

the whole day was like laughin until my jaw cant take it. xD

then mi n mandy went home.

but she alight @ the paraway tere cause she meetin her fren for supper LOLZ.

so ya loh.

gave her her christmas present and chat alot.

mostly talk abt horoscope de relationships.

haha. i tink we both kinda addicted to dat liao. xD

anyway, it is fun to hv her xD.

2day went out wif sher n larry for movie.

watch harry potter part 1 of the deathly hallows.

it is kinda like makin ppl feel very scare n nervous in the scene cause many parts like damn sudden de.

especially the atks.

kinda scary.

but i wanna watch the last part nxt yr in june i tink.

cant wait for it.

o ya i recently reformat my comp.

gt window 7 n other stuff now.

tryin to dl sch stuff to finish them.

meetin wai yik tml for lunch.

hope my sat n sun r the days for mi to rest. xD

hven read any of the magazine yet.

o man im so screwed.

sg rankin 4th

2010-12-25T15:15:00.002+08:00

wow,

Singapore is ranking 4th for viewing hikki's concert in Yokohama.

i mean not in the place but is a broadcast version i can say.

This is the ranking chart:

台湾：64,308
香港：24,486
アメリカ：13,431
シンガポール：4,991 (We r here xD)
韓国：1,929
オーストラリア：1,855
マレーシア：1,736
イギリス：1,561
カナダ：1,544
フィリピン：1,104

tis is way too awesome man.

i love it.

Hikki, we will always love u. xD <3

Happy bday to pinky

2010-12-24T21:00:00.002+08:00

yeah,

is Pinky 1 yrs old bday. xD

so happy.

cant stop huggin it.

was carryin her while watchin Hikki's concert.

which thx to the fan club mates who gt the combined version. xD

engross in the concert <3

isnt she cute?? ><

2hrs ++++ more to christmas.

i wonder wad r the others doin now.

kinda curious.

anyway,

juz now durin the evenin was chattin wif sher mama.

she kana bullied by sum fkin + nth to do dat look for trouble de bitch.

kinda angry abt it.

but then she dun really cant abt it le then we shall juz leave it. xD

o ya,

still tinkin if i should put Hikki's concert in my iTouch or not.

since mine onli 8GB.

didnt ask for 32 GB since @ first i wanna use it for songs onli.

but nvm.

wait till nxt yr i gt my HDD n inside shall b all Hikki's stuff n KAT-TUN's stuff. xD

sun meeting mandy n jack to discuss abt the Gekiken stuff,

mon gt JCG event,

tues meetin Larry to reformat lappy,

wed gt pri sch class BBQ,

thurs goin out wif sher n larry for movie.

fri is off day LOLZ.

kinda busy sia.

wow, hope b4 sch reopen i can breathe smoothly. =)

finally finish

2010-12-23T23:15:00.002+08:00

omg,

finally finish my IMI stuff.

although i gonna do 1 more.

but atm im done wif 1 dat is due tml.

er but can onli b post @ nite sumhow.

gt held up by sumting.

anyway,

finally i can gt my sat n alittle sun to finish 1 to 2 jap magazine which i hv yet gt the time to read.

damn it.

my jap is gettin worst.

sumwad i cant understand most of the sentences anymore.

hell i noe wad is goin on.

mayb cause i less read up + too many tings to do.

kinda gifin alot of excuses in here though. =/

o ya i gt sum of the utada latest songs.

omg, really they post it up so late.

anyway i gonna check HMV if they r sellin tis sun.

im so gonna gt it no matter wad.

i gonna write more tml.

so i gtg slp now.

nitez ppl.

appreciate n help others wif no favours return

2010-12-20T22:18:00.002+08:00

seriously,

times to times i do help ppl n oso ask help frm others.

but i nv ask anyting back frm others.

unless very coincidence i gt my prob to b solve then is like an exchange.

if not i dun wanna ask anyting back frm others de.

cause of my family background,

i hate askin for favors back after helpin.

n tis is y i wanna go sumwhr far whr they cant find mi n treat mi dead.

which is gd.

sumtimes like durin my bday or other special occasion.

i feel quite bad takin present frm frens.

is not dat i dun like it.

is dat cause their bday i nv gif them anyting onli say happy bday nia.

then feel abit bad abt it.

though sum say it is ok cause they noe my condition but still feel bad.

o ya sher mama is super + ultimate fine le.

so happy for her. xD

as long as she is happy, im happy too.

hehe xD.

hmm, im tink i gonna book mandy again bah.

since now she is single n available.

easy to ask her out.

unless her cca has alot of shit to clear then diff case le. ==

o btw,

recently joo intro mi the Maple Animation which i didnt noe it exist till ytd.

then he show mi the anime de mushroom n yeti.

OMG.

both so damn cute till we(mi n joo) agree not to kill them in maple anymore. ><

too cute to kill it.

more like i wanna hug it. xD

2day wif mandy

2010-12-20T00:11:00.002+08:00

2day went to buy my shoe first near the market tere.

gt a leather version de sneakers.

looks gd i like it alot. ><

wanna gt the boots but the aunty was like forcin mi to buy.

gt scared by her n ran off. LOLZ

the sneakers was bought in other shop so ya.

then went home bathe liao go find mandy in parkway.

lolz she say she wanna pass mi my christmas present,

but she 4gt to bring.

i gonna buy her a new tigger plushie xD.

so mayb i goin to minitoons n hunt for it.

then we go buy bubble tea @ KOI shop.

then find a place to sit down n chit chat.

we sit down the first ting we talk abt is Yan Chee.

cause of all pri sch classmates, she is the first who gt married @ the age of 18.

we were like wtf??

the biggest size in the class was first to gt married. O-O

lolz. we were so damn shock when kelly or others link her for the christmas bbq dat is on 29 Dec.

lolz, well,

alot of conflict between mandy n yan chee.

i cant remember the situations dat time but mandy still remember.

lolz, dats ppl of Scorpio race. xD

then around 5.10pm we went to take bus 31 go to Toa Payoh cause she nid go hospital to take care of her grandma.

then on the bus we talk abt her ex n the new guy dat is wooin her.

LOLZ.

is so fkin true dat nowadays de guyz really CMI de.

cause they noe how to socialise wif ppl on virtual world but not the real world.

damn fkin pathetic.

guyz nowadays r really useless.

ok ok cant say all but is most of them.

mi n mandy both came to an agreement dat 90% of the butch r better than the guyz.

which is so much true.

sumhow wad mandy told mi,

she is very easy to gt touched(gan dong) by ppl.

like she will appreciate others does but not to really like the person in such a way.

so ya loh.

not damn much worried for her cause she noe how to take care of herself more.

lolz. xD

Love makes a person fall n grow

2010-12-18T20:21:00.002+08:00

Love can make a person fall,

can make a person grow.

dats Love i can say.

anyway,

recently sher mama kinda sad cause of her relationship,

which im not gonna say more in detailed.

n oso sum of my frens.

well,

on a normal human perspective view,

human should fall in love wif their own opposite gender.

but sumhow,

tere r ppl who fall in love wif their similar gender.

ok no offence here,

im juz stand on psychology views.

ppl tinks dat it is wrg bcause human should produce human.

which is true.

but u cant force urself to like sum1 dat u dun like.

i mean u cant force a gay to like sum1 who is their opposite gender.

Love is natural.

it comes, it really comes.

it goes, it really goes.

is not wad they can choose in the first place.

ok wait im confusin here.

anyway, wad im tryin to say dat.

tere is no wrg to love sum1 dat u wan to.

but the point is we cant change a person heart or mindset to say "No".

ok dat is the point dat im tryin to say. @@

anyway,

out of sudden when i read sher mama blog.

i realise she wrote chinese. O-O

nice.

but i tink sum of my frens r hvin prob to read cause they cant understand.

hmm, i tink i gonna b busy again.

though is holiday,

but im workin for IMI blog atm.

as their artist but i noe my art wasnt dat fantastic.

so if u dun like it then fk off for goodness sake.

well, i nid to submit a piece by wednesday.

which i tink it is possible.

gonna start drawin tml.

hope can clear 3 charas.

wordin n color arrangement should b ok.

onli the charas part nid to spend more time i can say.

o ya, for sum of my fren who already knew.

i did a drawin on twin sword.

i tink i did talk abt it previously here.

n one of game mates name it for mi.

he also name for the other one which i hv yet draw it,

but already hv a blue print of how i wan it to b.

at first i name one of them wisdom n one of them star.

but he find it kinda plain so he added like sum1's wisdom n star.

i guess the more we add in,

the more it bcomes a story.

lolz, like dat i nid a script writer.

hmm, i tink i nid a fantasy world writer for it. xD

sumting random

2010-12-16T00:01:00.003+08:00

cute rite ><

our new member in the family.

tis puppy was my bro de fren gif de.

Christmas present frm Sophia. (ate sum on the way so bcome so little xD)

Christmas present frm Jay. xD

gt 2 christmas present tis yr.

one frm Jay n one frm sophia. xD

thx guyz.

was pretty down recently.

dunno y but super down.

like sumting juz slice my heart so deeply.

i dunno wad is goin on either.

juz feel hurt.

mayb my fren around is hurt bah.

seriously, the more sher say she is dyin,

the more im worried for her.

i dun wanna lose such a super duper ultimate gd fren.

she is a fren who really tahan mi.

i dunno how to say.

but she is tere dat is wad i noe.

i wonder if tis world is really dyin too or not.

sumhow i feel dat,

GOD created tis world but was destroy by the ppl he made.

is sad but is the fact.

nowadays human bcome more n more worst.

i dunno much but can c alot in my country.

mayb sum of u dun feel it.

but i do. =/

o ya i juz finish watchin the walkthrough of FFXIII.

it is super nice.

the endin damn touchin.

i cried sia. ='(

so touchin omg.

finally over

2010-12-15T14:20:00.002+08:00

finally is over.

time to rest but i tink i will b called back.

gt tis heavy feelin abt it but i cant say it is wrg.

first time gt my prediction rite.

not bad.

sumhow,

recently i gt tis dream.

kinda weird.

is like the distance dat i kept runnin on.

keep increasin.

but the prob is i didnt gt tired @ all.

i dunno y but is like u dun feel like u nid to breathe in deeply.

like u juz run as if u r like a wind.

so weird.

i wonder wad it means?

mah, anyway,

i tink im gonna go crazy soon.

1. use wrg noun (in jap)

2. gt annoyed by my guild ppl

3. over exhausted

argh. i tink im really crazy le.

2wks, but i doubt tere is any breaks.

ppl like mi shouldnt b restin.

"we live in a world whr no1 can see us."

i guess dats is the phrase we always used.

i wonder when is the day u left.

cant remember liao.

1yr liao.

very fast 1 yr le.

i guess dat is the onli memories we had.

drew a short sword but more like a dagger.

is a twins.

one urs n one is mine.

not sure if u can c it.

but i tink u can. =)

今日はとても楽しかったです。

2010-12-13T20:30:00.002+08:00

今日はとても楽しかったです。

today is a very enjoyable day.

first i meet up wif larry in sch.

then we went to design sch n eat.

then saw yuki alone so i ask her to join us for lunch.

but on our way for lunch we saw sophia.

however, she had her lunch le so ya loh.

then after lunch we went to find jet but he say he not available until 5pm.

so we go to library n find sophia.

then study tere abit.

programmin nth go in confirm + guarantee + chop.

the rest should b ok.

but sum of them kinda new.

i tink math is same as programmin.

the more u practice, the better is ur foundation.

but we tere study awhile later then play game, watch show n draw stuff. xD

lolz, i tink im not the study type.

kinda worried if i gt affect sophia anot @ that time.

then around 4.50pm we left then go find jet to get back our solutions.

then we went to TM to eat xiao long bao.

since dat quek dunno wad is dat. ==

i didnt eat any but in the end larry ate like 3.

kinda quiet @ first but after larry put in topic,

every1 started to chat.

but durin the bus trip frm TP to TM,

it was so quiet.

no1 talks.

i dunno mayb juz afraid if we start sumting or brought up sumting,

tere will b 'war'.

so ya.

well, is not dat i dun wanna talk juz dat i dunno whr to start.

mayb im not a gd frens to talk to afterall.

christmas comin which means it is goin to b 2011 soon.

time really flies.

i wonder how the future will b like.

if u noe the future,

u probably kinda wan to change the present.

but if u dunno the future,

u probably kinda scare of wad is goin to happen nxt.

i dun wish to noe the future but im afraid of the future.

wad lies ahead of mi no1 noes except GOD to many ppl i can say.

sumtimes, i wish, if onli i nv exist in the world whr it belongs to human,

i tink i can b more free as i m now.

anyway,

im tinkin of gettin myself christmas present.

well, plannin to gt a necklace for gd. =/

especially those hv water resistances. ==

or a ring since i lost my previous dragon ring.

so ya. ==

but first, im so gonna gt Hikki's new Single Collections Vol.2.

i die die gonna gt it no matter wad.

JCS results

2010-12-12T14:11:00.003+08:00

yeah,

i gt my result for my JCS jap exam.

n i made it to the nxt lvl.

here is my results:

Grammar & Vocab - 81/100

Listening - 43/50

Dictation - 45/50 (cause of katakana) ==

Writing (Kanji) - 44/50 (3 questions i cannot do)

Oral - 48/50 (tis part is the miracle part)

Essays - 38/50 (cause i can put past tense to present tense)

Total Marks : 299/350 (juz nid 1 more for 300) ==

anyway,

i heard dat my class dat aunty who is every yr top student,

gt almost full marks.

i tink is her compo dat part.

cause compo is not easy gt full marks.

when hvin strict markers like japanese so ya.

anyway,

gt pass jiu hao.

i still plannin to revise durin my holidays.

but i tink i gonna b slackin cause after to many days of igai.

but will still do sum read up in the magazine.

since my bro was like hurryin mi cause dat time i hurry him.

lolz.

when i free, he not free.

when i not free, he is free.

o well,

i tink tis comin christmas gonna b a borin one.

well, goin out i tink will b still the same.

but i hope can go arcade n hv more fun tere. xD

o great

2010-12-10T22:23:00.002+08:00

o great,

in the end tml i nid head down to my grandpa house on my own tml.

no free service ride since my uncle car had sent for repair.

but will b usin the other car for practice.

haiz. not sure if my brother will b taggin along to go down or not.

so ya.

well, everyting is done n i feel so tired.

mayb im too tired till i cant write my lyrics.

is juz mi or im losin dat part of the feelins.

aw, mayb i nid to gt inspiration frm sumting or gt sum1 stories to fit in.

@@. i dun hv any story frm myself to write tis 1 in.

well, cause tis 1 is too complex i guess.

o ya i kinda realise.

i hv been usin back "boku"(onli guy will use boku if gals mean they r....) quite recent.

well, i tink im like kinda into the stuff im doin.

but it doesnt mean dat i cant recognize myself as a gal or guy. ==

im fine k. ==

o n christmas is comin.

which means pinky bday is comin. xD

n which is also means dat i nid to prepare a present for mandy.

hmm, since i own her a bday so i tink i gonna make up durin christmas.

hmm, mayb should gt sum guy stuff for her since she is back to single.

since we were once like dat. xD

dats y im so rough. ==

self-protection i guess. xD

o btw, today is a weird day.

for most of u, i can say.

like u noe out of sudden everyting change again.

im not tryin to say dat im very sarcastic,

juz dat it is weird.

erm, i dun really wanna say much since it will affect every1.

i hope tere is no politics in the class man.

cause it is like hvin cold war.

wth, pls grow up can. ==

o ya, for sum of u hven read my blog for quite sumtimes.

i tink is ok since i didnt blog much recently until today i did 2 posts.

n er, i might b doin more post out of the sudden im not sure.

cause alots of negative tinkin is in my mind n im tryin to get it out.